Anime Forever!!!

Long Updates.

2007-02-03T21:32:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! Hm... This blog has been dead for a month =p

And so I wonder how many people are still taking notice of it haha. Well, time to tell some stories I guess.

Anyways, my driving test is on next friday, waited 4 months for it. And its my third attempt. Wish me all the best. And then I'll be able to use the family car! But passing the test comes first. Plans come later of course. At least now there aren't other distractions like studies. I can 100% focus on driving without any worries. So this time I must do well!! Otherwise, I'll have to continue trying to get that license only after I finish army. Hm.... Better grab this chance properly.

Time passes very quickly when its holidays. Its 2 more months till I enter the army and start beginning another stage of life, and I suppose till then, I need to start convincing myself to do some general conditioning. Once again, action speaks louder than words. Its time to stop slacking, be more proactive and start making decisions.

In the meanwhile, at least I have once and for all, finally started clearing those anime tapes that I have recorded down on TV. And well, while organising my tapes this time round, I finally decided to do some counting in order to get a rough gauge of how many tapes there actually are.

To describe it, its a case of interest turned hobby, turned addiction, turned obsession. I guess. Hm.. I wonder if there's a difference between addiction and obsession, but I guess that's how I want to describe it.

Well, here and there, I think I have mentioned to some of my friends before that I have LOTS of anime tapes at home. And now, I finally have pictures to prove that. =p Ok I guess after seeing these pictures, many people will think I'm nuts. Want to try and guess about how many tapes there are? Take a look at the pictures first haha.

If any of you guessed correctly, it would be around 600-700 tapes! I counted up to 589 tapes but I left some out hm.. Shall count finish them another time. And amazingly, there's enough space in the room to put all those tapes inside without letting them being seen on first glance. Like in the cupboard, drawers and boxes haha.

Oh well, I think I'll just say this for now. Nothing much to say actually. Cause everyday seems quite mundane actually. =p

Take care everyone.

Council Steam Boat!

2006-12-30T00:23:00.000-08:00

Hm, I've just returned from having steamboat with the 28th councillors at Marina South. Eating out with friends is an enjoyable experience as usual, regardless of all that smoke, burnt stuff etc etc which is part of a steamboat experience. Looking forward to the next time =)

However, this time round at the end of everything, I somehow seemed more drained than usual even though I didnt really do that much stuff. Its kind of a weird feeling. Like all of a sudden you just feel "Tired ah..." then in my case, things like noise start to get irritating again. So that was the signal for me to better return home in case things worsen. But I kind of feel bad about suddenly leaving my group of friends without any real notice... It just seems like a selfish act. Perhaps I am just thinking too much again hm... Everyone has a off-form day once in a while after all.

Tomorrow is countdown day for the new year. Wonder if there will be any gathering again? I'll find out eventually I guess. Somehow I dont really think countdown day will feel like any special day unless you choose to make it special. Well that's my view.

Cya again everyone.

First Day at Work

2006-12-29T16:04:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone. The New Year quickly approaches huh? Time seems to pass quite quickly even though I must say each passing day kind of feels long sometimes.

Hey, yesterday's first day at work was definitely more than I expected haha. Well I finally managed to learn a bit more about what my Dad usually does at work. And man... Working at a sawmill definitely takes more than just mere muscle power. Of course regardless of any job, critical thinking is always needed. Starting my first day at the sawmill really made me feel like a greenhorn after all. And well, I picked up a few things about how to move, plain(smoothen) and pack together wood. And that's really a lot of wood haha... Especially the heavy ones... They're definitely a killer if you dont know how to do things properly. And if you're not alert you might end up injuring your hands. I must say there's relatively a lot of potential hazards around. Spiltters, large heavy wooden loads, the fork-lift, etc etc. But everyone manages to complete work without any major problems. So I will say that the job is feasible.

But, its only half a day of work and I'm starting to feel parts aching all over my body haha.. So its still challenging for me after all. Well, at least I'm making myself useful, even though my efficiency is low. At least next time I wont be so blur already. And hopefully I'll get better at the job. =)

After a day's work, nothing is more satisfying than returning back home haha...

Oh well, cya then everyone.

Late Update.

2006-12-27T06:20:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone, hm... Long time no see perhaps? Looks like its a late update, but first of all, Merry Christmas! Haha.

And soon enough, A Happy New Year as well.

So, I think now I'll begin my post.

Let's see... Well, maybe I've not been as busy as most of you people who have started work before already, but at least I've been keeping myself busy as well also. Last week, I've been helping do the repainting of the house. And yeah, the painting was done in a whole week. Well, I guess you all might be thinking there's nothing much to talk about regarding painting, but I guess when any of you all start repainting your house, you'll get the idea that things arent that simple after all. Yes, in a sense hard labour. =p But hey, the satisfaction after that is a great enough reward.

At least I'm quite proud of all that painting that I completed. And perhaps I am a bit more appreciative of the walls which I face at home everyday. But honestly, I wonder how many people actually bother to take notice of your house walls? Unless I think you have to clean them. Or when they have problems. Well I guess I have to be more observant of my surroundings at least. One of my weaknesses. Daily observations. Know me well enough and you'll figure that out bah.

As for today, me and a few of my class guys had a great badminton session. And after that, we went swimming also and managed to discuss some issues regarding our S10A gathering haha. I can say things are more or less starting to be organised. Everyone please reply the forwarded sms! That's if you have read this post that is.

Tmr, I'm finally starting to help out at my Dad's sawmill. Wonder what kind of jobs I will be doing haha. Well I'll find out soon enough.

Take care everyone, enjoy the holidays. Less than 4 more months till I enlist hm...

Prom Night

2006-12-06T02:55:00.000-08:00

Phew... What a long Prom Night experience that was....

Well, I finally reached home, and I'm still feeling quite energetic. Partially it might be cause I dont have to worry about waking up early to go to work, unlike the rest of my friends. Well, you must really know how to respect the working class. Things are definitely a lot different from studying all together... Of course, currently I'm all just talk, and havent really gone into seriously getting a job yet, but I guess anyone should get the idea that working at jobs just isnt that simple. My time will come eventually, then I'll see what skills I have are actually useful after all.. Another learning experience I guess.

Now, the main subject on prom. Hm.. honestly, I didnt really eat that much after all to "make worthwhile my money". But I'm quite satisfied with the overall experience. I mean, what's most important in the end is still having good company. That's my opinion, and I think I am a easily satisfied person that way perhaps. Well, you could also say I'm a boring guy. It's as if saying that nothing matters except having good company. Just an experience that I can enjoy myself at. And I really had a good time.

Hm.. the overall schedule was quite simple, the emcee was quite an interesting guy and some of us had quite a lot of fun playing the "games" that were organised to liven up the mood. In the end the team (King or Queen) that won the most points was allowed to have a bonus lucky draw. Other than that, its the usual organised draw for prize giving.

Of course, I will upload some pictures soon... And perhaps a few short video clips that I took.
One comment I definitely must mention about prom night is....

Flashes! Cameras! In-prompt-to Photography!!!

We waited quite a while before we actually could enter the ballroom, and so its photos, photos, photos, and many more photos. Personally, I aint too much of a photo fanatic. I just wait for opportunities to come, or if I feel its really a must take photo... I dont really have the habit to ask people to take photos with me haha... I'm less "proactive" when using cameras. Perhaps some of my friends will send me some of their good photos also haha... Especially those group photos of everyone.

After prom, everyone parted their different ways and split into different groups for "Post-prom entertainment". Well, clubbing really isnt my kind of style cause I admit I dont dance well. I bet after army after getting a fitter body I'll be more confident of myself doing "stunts". Its about self-confidence man. Then maybe I'll go clubbing just to see what its like. Of course, in the end I'll have to see if I like the atmosphere at clubs, and I definitely will prefer to just accompany my closer friends if they preferred other places. The last thing I ever want happening to me is to get drunk and well, start doing stupid acts. And worse of all, you need to be "escorted" back home if you're really drunk. I really dont like the idea of bothering people cause of personal problems. But getting drunk just for the sake of testing the limit might yet be another idea.. Next time perhaps... next time.

This time round, me and my friends didnt even touch a sip of alcohol. Partially cause there wasnt any alcohol provided at the prom to begin with haha. And I dont think we're that desperate to drink alcoholic drinks... Why would you want to get drunk and spoil the whole prom mood? Ok I didnt think until that much but I mean, no alcohol then no alcohol lor, its no big deal. What's more important is to just simply enjoy the experience.

Friends just rock man. Beats rotting at home playing games all day long.... just to kill time. To have a more fulfilling lifestyle, I guess its a good thing to be more "happening", and enjoy time with friends. Balance is always the keyword.

I believe most of my friends will agree with me. As time passes, I always realise there are more things that I should change about myself. And hopefully these changes are for the better and eventually lead me to more answers about myself. Haha... its a really really long story and continuous cycle.

Take care everyone... All the best in your future endeavours. We all lead different difficult journeys of life, so never give up when facing obstacles!

The tiredness is seeping in, and I feel that I can finally need to go to sleep now. Will update photos soon.

Update:

Hm.... It kind of seems that I didnt really take a lot of pictures after all, and they dont look too good either. =P So I guess I wont be updating them after all. Ah.. Well I dont mind that much either. Sorry for anyone who was looking forward to photos though...

Back to daily holiday life again....

A levels has ended!

2006-11-24T21:21:00.000-08:00

Another stage of life has passed. Well, In these 2 years of JC, I have learnt many lessons, commiteed many mistakes, gained many new experiences.

Of course, its hard to phrase in words what I have truly gained or understood.

The same journey, but new changes. Hopefully with time, I will eventually know the answers to my questions.

Currently, I can relax as much as I want during these holidays, but I will still have to do some soul-searching as well.

There are still many goals for me to achieve. But for now, I should relax and take things one step at a time.

Enjoy your holidays everyone.

Updates.

2006-10-28T01:22:00.000-07:00

A levels are closer and closer... Quite a week so far... I guess I'll just mention the important stuff.

Oh well, I finally got my enlistment letter on Thursday. Enlistment day is April 13th. As for post A level plans, well I'm gonna leave that for after As. Quite a duh thing but yah I guess...

And sadly, I failed my 2nd driving test. O_O Performed worse than the last time I took it =p. I just wasnt confident at all and got nervous again... So I mad mistakes I normally didnt do during revision. Well, better not fail a 3rd time... Lessons are just so expensive. And next time, I aint gonna take the test in the morning again. I had a restless sleep that Wednesday night so that must have affected my alertness too...

There's still a lot of studying and practise I must finish by next week.

Using com nowadays is kind of boring... Cause I banned games and such. And its just visiting the same websites and checking email everyday. Better convert more time to useful mugging instead...

The journey feels long as always... I need to be more productive and focussed. Got lots of stuff to be done.

The final scretch. A levels.

2006-09-30T22:15:00.001-07:00

Oh well... Everyone has finally reached the final scretch in JC... The last stage, A levels.

Just as Mr Kwek says, reflect, restrategise, and reinforce. Well, everyone has their own studying plans and styles after all.

Its quite strange that its only now that I find it more effective to depend on my friends to kind of "tutor" me one to one for my revision. Seems quite effective for chem revision so far. Thanks for helping me out guys. Will need your continued support for the following month to come. And I hope I'll be helping you guys out as well. =)

Finally, I'm slowly but surely gaining more confidence in myself. Now its time to quicken the pace of things. Confidence really means a lot to me... I guess its one of my greatest weaknesses. Well, this time there's no more giving excuses about not preparing enough for exams.

The final crucial month.

After A's, everyone's new journey continues. Hopefully everyone walks a path that they want to.

To everyone, just believe in what you believe in.

As for me, I must remind myself that self-doubt is self-destruction.

I believe in my own power. Time to finally achieve results. Time to reap everything I sowed.

No regrets.

All the best. May everyone's wishes be fulfilled.

Thoughts.

2006-09-08T16:36:00.000-07:00

Haiz... Must have been not having enough sleep. The vicious cycle returns again.

People always want to change. But its such a difficult thing to do, that needs endless amounts of courage and determination and of course, effort.

People are the ones who control their emotions, not the environment.

But at times you wonder, are you being realistic enough about your goals? Or are you being too hopeful and just self-deceiving yourself?

An obstacle is always an obstacle, as long as you think that it is one you can never overcome.

The same goals. The same promises. The same obstacles. The same disappointment. The same desires.

In the end, I must only stick to what I believe in. And by doing so I believe I'll reach some of those goals eventually.

I must.

How can others help you when you dont even want to help yourself, and when you're not even determined enough. If you fail, it just means you werent determined enough.

At least, I do not want to have any regrets. I must be accountable to myself.

Back to square one.

The results shall determine everything. Enough said.

Church Service

2006-09-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

Ah yes.... Finally an update. So many things have happened, but they all dont need to be updated about. Besides, recently I have been staying for night study program at school till super late and there's no point in me wasting extra energy on blogging.

Well, today I finally felt like spending some time on this... in order to organise my feelings better I guess.
I'll try to keep things as short as possible though. I think.

Firstly, somehow as I sit here at my com doing reflection... Things seems as though they never happened haha... Strange feeling. What a difference in atmosphere I guess.

Well today, I attended a church service for the first time.... Lol. I surprised even myself this time round... Luckily I wasn't alone so I didnt end up feeling as awkward as I would have felt I would.

Today's experience on the overall feels quite ok but shocking.... I was like playing board games at Settlers cafe at one point, to suddenly becoming overwhelmed by the atmosphere in the church auditorium later...

My brain was like in overdrive trying to decide and control those feelings within me. Though I knew within myself before I even stepped into that place, that I strongly believed in my own personal values. And that I wouldn't allow them to be changed at this point of time. So I went in and tried to be as open-minded as possible. Though I still have some doubts definitely, but at least I stayed through the whole event... Which was quite surprising to me myself as well. Can't blame me for having so many uncertainties since its my first time.

But at least I can say I'm not as ignorant as before... Experience wise that is.

Well, I did my best to be as respectful to the others as possible... Even though I did feel bad and "out of place". Well, my view is that if I were to follow what they were doing, I should be 100% convinced, otherwise there's no point in me doing it and being a hypocrite.

I must mention that the church people were especially friendly towards us though... And that the end of the day, though things did feel awkward for me here and there, I wasn't forced into doing anything I didnt like to do. And I managed to meet a few new people here and there, since they're so friendly, why shouldn't I be the same? Well, its my same old logic of showing respect I guess haha... See what I mean of my own personal values being strengthened again? Maybe I did benefit afterall. And I definitely won't say that its a completely bad experience. That would be unfair. Different people believe in different things after all.

I'm not trying to debate about religion or anything... and I have no intention of being blasphemous in anyway either.

I just felt, hey I haven't felt so different like this in ages... So should mention a bit about it.

In a way, my respect of my Christian friends has increased a little I guess. I don't make friends based on seeing what religion they are of after all, I see who they are as people, and their character.

Somethings like that... As for the rest of the thinking, I won't mention here haha. Time to continue working hard on studies tomorrow!!!

Jia you everyone... Don't lose faith in yourself...and what values you believe in.

What a long and tiring day... But an even longer journey ahead. Endure.

The fight continues.

2006-08-09T23:29:00.000-07:00

The human mind can be so dumbfounding.

No matter how much self-reflection I did before, people like me are still unable to fully control my emotions.

The same vicious cycle, the same problems, the same solutions. Everything seems simple enough, the logic of "Been there, done that, must improve and move on this time." But things just get complicated.

The past still continues to haunt me. Regrets, anguish, sorrow, misery. Negative emotions overcome me when ever there's any little chance.

I learnt that people control their emotions. But yet I still get confused at times.

When you feel bad about yourself, nothing gets into the head. Not encouragement from friends, not care from teachers, not the deadlines that need to be met. And then? The only person you can depend on of course is still yourself. You cant depend on others forever.

Time is not a luxury as always. There's tons of things to do. After my spring has recharged, its back to mugging mode again.

I made promises. And I must keep them. I disappointed people. I hated myself for that. In the end everything leads to me still hating myself and seeing myself as still remaining the weak self I was convinced I was.

There's no point telling yourself you improved character-wise, when you still cant accomplish anything at all.

Enough time wasted. Time to get more things done.

What is my true desire? I shall find out someday.

If I cant even handle the path I am taking now, let alone the path I shall eventually discover and take in future.

I want to be more stronger and stronger and stronger.

If only things were as simple as in Anime series... Where characters accompish amazing feats and overcome all odds to finally attain their goals...

I cannot afford to lose track of my path at this point of time now...

Its always the same issues that I keep forgetting...

Goals. Priorites. Promises.Perseverance. Self-Motivation. Regrets.

Is willpower a panacea to all problems?

Let's all find out and see if miracles can really happen to me after all.

Different people have different beliefs. I guess I just have to stick to mine. And continue to move forward.

I believe I told myself before that I expected the journey to be arduous. So there's no point having fears now.

The battle continues on. The weak-willed shall be the final loser. Survival of the fittest indeed.

Short update

2006-07-29T21:44:00.000-07:00

Oh... What a long time it has been since I last blogged. I wonder if anyone still visits? Haha... Oh well just suddenly felt like updating I guess.

I mean like hey, everyone's so busy nowadays. There's no time left to still be slacking away for studies. Pay now play later? I would rather think, pay now, or suffer the consequences. Oh well I might have a different viewpoint all together when A Levels are finally over. Who doesnt want to have fun and relax all they want? Well currently, by now I should have understood what situation I am in now. Better put in my bestest effort to close the grade gap or nothing will ever get accomplished.

So far, "Operation Time Table" has been quite effective so far. At least I shortened a lot of time spent always slacking away, or falling asleep or stuff. Having a plan in mind does get me going all the way after all. Less time slacking=more productivity. At least I dont feel bad about myself wasting time... My schedule always keeps me busy and occupied.

Hm... I bet it will be an interesting thing to find out how much more I can actually accomplish and finally show some of that potential inside me. Everyone's got to have some hope yah? Self-motivation is very important in no matter what you do.

Of course, who doesnt have regrets about the past. Or even doubts about the future. But the main point is to understand what's your priorities and goals, and just achieve them. Time is not a luxury to always be pondering about the bad past. Which I always tend to do. But we all just have to move on... There's no point in always looking back if you dont learn from your mistakes, and put in action. And of course, I dont want to be bothering people again with my personal problems... I got to learn how to settle things by myself. I cant always be depending on others forever. Other people have their own problems and lives to carry on with.

Somehow, lessons like determination, self-discipline, self-motivation, perseverance, priorities, they were all taught to me since a very long time ago. But its only now that I can actually sense I am following these lessons better now.

Bit by bit I sense some part of me inside changing. Even though its not exactly major changes. Maybe I'm one small step more closer into discovering that part inside me that I always felt was missing. Just a gut feeling.

There's no time for me to be going out to enjoy myself. I prefer staying at home to be as productive as I can in work. There's so much stuff to be done...

I sure hope I see some improvement, no matter how little. Better get myself out of that "shit-hole" which I had dug for myself once and for all.

Busy busy busy....

What are your goals? What do you believe in? No matter what, there's work to be done. We just have to continue moving forward.

All the best to everyone for prelims and A levels....

The desire to become stronger and stronger....

End of Mid Year.

2006-07-07T22:17:00.000-07:00

Wah haha. Finally a post. Phew. What a relief. Mid Years is finally over. Officially. Well this Mid Years definitely taught me some new lessons about myself again. Its a good thing to feel and know that I did learn more about myself. Only by going through hardship do people really start to understand themselves better. Another repeat of the vicious cycle, another chance taken to understand my inner feelings and such even better.

Well, of course, if I were to state out every single thing that happened to me this time round, it would be a REALLY really long story. If you know me well enough haha. Not because its a one month gap, but every little negative event that happens to me creates a big impact on myself I guess.

I believe that I am able to become more focussed after this Mid Years. Whatever the result may be, I shall take it like a man. Its not like I didnt try to put in any effort this time round. But I believe at times the disappointment of not reaping what you sow can be so great. But do we have time to be bothered by these things? Yes, fears are always there. But you just have to convince yourself to get over those fears. Getting all scared at the last moment definitely wont make things work out no matter how worried you get.

Somehow things felt differently this time. Discovering new fears, being reminded of old weaknesses, and also fortunately, managing to discover new solutions. Thanks to the support of those who cared for me haha. I definitely couldnt do it alone. Currently, I know definitely have to depend on others, even though I still feel pai seh about stuff like that. But some day I hope that others will be able to depend on me as well. Just as they have supported me, I shall support them back wholeheartedly. In a sense to repay the debt of gratitude that I owe all those people. Thank you all. And please continue to help me out as well eh? Haha.

During this weekend, I shouldnt be spending all of it on games and slacking etc haha. I made a promise to myself to do some reflections and write down what improvements can be done and what lessons I have learnt. So that the next time round, if those troubles come back again, at least I will have some preparation to tackle them.

Mid Year Exam is over. But the long journey we all take still isnt over. Remember that. Dont lose your drive now people, haha. Its so easy to lose confidence in one's self. But life is about overcoming challenges anyway. We all know its a tough journey ahead, so why bother worrying about why things are hard in the first place? Been there, done that, so just continue to persevere on. Life isnt always about feeling bad about yourself. Well for me, understanding what makes myself tick helps a lot. Understand what truely motivates you in life then decide what plans you wish to make. For me, just floating aimlessly just doesnt help a bit at all. Self-motivation has a big part to play when you're studying anyways. People cant always be there to remind you or force you to study. No wonder people always say its so much easier to study a subject when you have a passion and interest for it. Its easier to focus when you know what motivates you I guess. And you wont suddenly switch mood someday and wonder why the whole world is starting to crumbling down on you.

Being occupied with work and just constantly doing work just because there's a need for it is definitely different from knowing why you are doing it in the first place. But of course different people have their own different forms of motivation. Its just my opinion from my own experience I guess.

As for mentioning other mundane events, next time maybe.

This weekend, I shall finally get some exercise too. And organise my thoughts again to be mentally prepared to continue the long journey and endless battle with myself.

"God does not help those who do not depend on themselves" after all. And so I must believe in myself.

Cya everyone.

The forever promise.

2006-06-05T21:18:00.000-07:00

Finally the part of the holiday where its purely self-revision. I'm finally starting to get into action and at least I feel that I try to spend all my time at school to good use. Less chit chatting, more mugging or doing of work. But of course, I'm still slow at absorbing stuff as always. Will need to test myself with some revision papers I guess.

As for the weekend, well... Saturday was really interesting for me cause in the morning I went for another one of my own cycling trips for some exercise. 4 hours straight from 11.00am onwards... Ok I just felt like cycling haha. Anyways I cycled from home to Ang Mo Kio, and well, getting lost while looking for your friend's house can be a really funny experience. I aint that streetwise after all. But at least I'm not that lost that I dunno how to cycle back home. I suppose I wont mention all the details of my "adventure of Ang Mo Kio" haha. Cause I think it'll be a really long post. And I shouldnt be using too much of my time blogging. At least I'll say its an experience to remember. Well, I did got stopped interrogated by some policemen along the way....lol But I think it was just a routine check cause they were quite friendly and just asked basic questions. Next goal, Yishun! When I really have the time next time haha...

Well, I finally organised my thoughts yesterday and from now on, I believe I wont let myself be so weak and susceptible to my so called inner demons and that vicious cycle of stress. After some serious thought, I finally realised that there was something deep in my heart that I treasured the most. Something that I understood was so important to me that even after many years down the road, it would never change. And so I just made one promise to myself. That one promise shall always lead me to the path I want to take in life. Well, I wont say what promise I made to myself, cause there's just those things that you feel you need to keep to yourself to show how significant they are. A promise that I made to myself and shall never ever break. I was once told before that making promises which I cannot keep, restrict myself and can also potentially backfire at me.

There are just some promises that I need to make in life. It is these challenges I give myself that allow me to gain my own confidence of myself. I dont believe I am that useless. I shall endure everything that is thrown at me and do my best no matter what happens. I do not want to have regrets again.

"Have I upheld that promise which I made to myself?" I shall ask myself that question everyday.

Negative feelings

2006-06-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

Ah crap...Negative feelings resurfacing again. I wonder if its because of my lack of self-confidence. A week had lectures has gone, but I wonder to myself, how much did I benefit from them? Did I put in enough effort? Definitely not 100% I feel. Haiz. I shall say nothing more. It'll only be another session about how sad I feel about myself. I might as well spend the time thinking through and organising my thoughts.

What kind of a person do I want myself to be? What kind of motivation should I have? Even at this stage, I'm still so lost. That just reflects how useless I am. Buck up Zhiming. You're still in a screwed situation.

By letting this vicious cycle overtake me again, I let down myself and others again.

Self-disappointment. The fucked up situation.

2006-05-31T21:00:00.000-07:00

Ouch... When I left school for home today I started to have a splitting headache. I dont feel that good haha. But studies still have to carry on. Must have been those continuous late nights and stuffing my ears with music when I'm mugging at home. For once I need some peace and silence. At least it makes me feel better alright.

Today was quite a bad day for me bah. Got caught at bio lecture while talking to my classmate. Then I was shot 2 questions which I both answered wrongly. I already have a low sense of self-confidence, and from the incident today, I feel even more disappointed with myself. But at least I put in the effort to admit my mistakes and try to find out what went wrong. And I think I'll go apologise to the lecturer tomorrow. It was both an embarassing and disappointing experience for myself.

If only I put in more effort to read and understand my notes. If only I paid more attention and made sure I benefitted the most from the revision lecture. If only I stopped forgetting how lousy and pathetic I still am at studies. If only I remind myself, there's no real luxury for me to still be carefree. I am still convinced till now, regardless of how much encouragement there has been from others, that I am just not serious enough. And who to blame? Who else but myself. Deep down I still hate myself. And today was another reminder that I am failing my own promises which I made to myself. My promise to prove my worth as a student.

Attitude change time. Knowledge is power. And I must have it at all costs, with my own hands.

The vicious cycle repeats itself. As expected.

Pay Now. Play Later.

2006-05-30T09:36:00.000-07:00

Finally....today I got some work going there. Though I didnt really manage to do much revision. But well doing homework is revision yah? Especially for maths. And yesterday, I finally managed to book my final driving lesson. Less distractions for the next month or so cause my test is 2 months later. Resuming practice lessons the few weeks before the actual test. Yes, studies. Finally I get the idea of mugging in school without thinking of other distractions. Though back at home its like back to slacking attitude hm... Must control it. OK rather than blogging more stuff, I should spend this time mugging bio to clarify my doubts during tomorrow's lecture.

Self-motivation is very important I guess. Pay now. Play later. More productivity.

In the end, I am the one in control of what I want. Of what I gain, of what I lose, of what mistakes I repeat. Time to make use of what time is left... rather than bitching about the past and wasting even more time.

Mug like possessed people! I wonder if that's possible for me though. Have to try as much as I can.

At least my inner demons seem quiet for now. Unless I purposely drag them out to remind myself of how I shouldnt fail myself again.

Good luck everyone.

Learning from Mistakes. Setting Goals.

2006-05-26T21:48:00.000-07:00

Finally, a week complete from all that mugging about SPA haha. Well at least I can confidently say that I did put in the effort for studying SPA this time round. And I shouldnt do too bad I guess.

Finally, council is over. Time to uphold my responsibilities as a student. A task that's even more difficult than being a councillor if you ask me. I can still feel the past haunting me. But that's not the main point. I've been there, done that. So time to get back into action again. Time is getting lesser and lesser. And so I will have to work harder and harder. Though I still feel lonely at times. Feeling lonely even though I convinced myself to be independent and not a burden to others.

More driving again this weekend. Time to finish what I have started. Gotta make the time I spent work it.

I still wonder what I've been doing with my time that still makes me no unproductive at studies. Of course. Its the distractions at home. Time to set some stricter rules for myself again. The vicious cycle only repeats itself when I want it to.

I wonder why, but I seem to manage to control my temper a bit better nowadays. I mean I know I'm irritated by stuff but I managed to dont flare up. Lets see how things go bah. I'm quite glad I'm upholding my promises, to some extent.

Good luck all.... for mid years. It's closer than you think it is.... Better start mugging now.

As for me... I shall set goals for myself for mid year. And I must achieve them. That's all I need to focus my mind on.

Just another simple day...

2006-05-19T17:54:00.000-07:00

Phew...just finished my lessons of the day and came to the council room to see if I could help out in doing the cleaning up. Apparently I reached too late... Oh well it shows that council is still as efficient as ever haha. So I thought I would just hang around, and here I am blogging again.

Today was quite a fruitful day I guess. Well, nothing really special happened, but I guess there's the idea that "What's a good day? Its a day that nothing bad happened rather than something special happened." :) Good enough for me I guess. Well I guess I am seeing things more positively I guess. Hope this lasts as long as possible haha. Well, after slacking at home a bit and arranging my thoughts properly, its time to get back into the working drive again. Yes, another busy weekend to prepare for SPA next week as well as settle some stuff like CCA records and things.

Hm... Well I still have to remind myself of serious things here and there, but as most of my friends say, reminders are needed, but not to the extent of over stress cause it defeats the whole purpose.

Yesterday, I read that book on "The Power of Leadership" that Mrs Chong gave the councillors as a thanks for our hard work during O2 haha. Here's some interesting quotes which I thought were suitable for me.

1. A man must be big enough to admit his mistakes, smart enough to profit from them, and strong enough to correct them.

2. Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm

3. Failure is the opportunity to begin again, more intelligently.

4. Luck is the residue of design.

5. Pay now, play later. Play now, pay later.

6. Failure to prepare is preparing to fail.

7. Have confidence that if you have done a little thing well, you can do a bigger thing well too.

8. The most important thing about having goals is to have one.

Yeap, that's some interesting quotes which inspire me to think through about what to do about my current situation. :)

Ok lah, just a short update for now. Leaving for home now....

Realisations

2006-05-17T23:42:00.000-07:00

Yo everyone, I'm blogging again. Dont worry, this time round I aint angry about stuff again. I just need to mention some things again.

Somehow, everytime I go through periods of like intense stress, there always comes a day when I realise, I was being a dumb person after all thinking about all that. I am also starting to become aware of that viscious cycle that is coming to control my feelings and mood. Or rather, realising the new weakness that I have experienced through.

I also believe in the idea that "Men should shed blood, not tears." And so...whenever I shed tears, there must be a very good reason for that to have happened. At least at the end of the day I gain a greater understanding of myself. So far, I can guess that I cry mainly for 2 reasons. Of course, just like anyone else, who doesnt cry over stress? But there's a more special kind of feeling that I feel at times. The times when I am relieved and yet I still cry. Its a mix of happiness and sadness.

I am happy that I know that there are people who truly care for me and support me, and yet at the same time, after realising how dumb I was, I am saddened by my own faults which hurt and worried others. Its a kind of experience which I didnt have before in the past. Well, life's full of new things to be learnt.

Of course, I remember not to keep myself 100% happy and remind myself of the difficult journey ahead in order not to repeat my mistakes. These few days I have started to over-slack again -_-

I have started to slowly begin to understand what kind of approach I shall take to go through this difficult journey. It was with no doubt earned through lots of hardship and struggles, and all the more I should treasure what I have learnt.

This message is to all my friends who have shown support for me in these times of need. Honestly, I do not know how to repay you all. It is difficult to express in words the gratitude I feel. But as I have always swore to myself, I shall respect always those who have respected me back. With such support, I know and promise, that if there ever comes a time where those inner demons start to set in, I shall conqueur them and move on. There are people who I cannot let down, and goals that I must achieve. Ultimately, I dont want to disappoint and worry others, truly earning that respect I always wanted. Self-respect.

Being angry is a weakness. Purposely making myself angry doesnt justify anything and is still a weakness. Since I cant stay angry forever, I should take the other approach, but make improvements which make sure I dont repeat my same mistakes.

Time to do away with things like "I hate myself, therefore I must get results". Now is, " I have support from people who care about me, therefore I must not disappoint them."

For the next coming weeks, I shall see what I am capable of. I finally see a ray of hope. I must work hard.

Results of Tiredness

2006-05-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

Alamak... Need to let things out again. At the same time I need to explain myself about some issues.

Firstly, I am so sorry if I offended everyone today. : ( My temper is getting out of control yet again. At least its not in bursts of shouting or stuff like that. BUT, I did lash out today at people too. That makes me feel even more worried and sad. Rather than just letting out my anger like what I always do, I'm starting to vent my anger on people and hurt them. Another reason to hate myself. -_-

I feel that I'm just tired. At least from these few weeks, I have concluded that:

Tiredness= An increase in tendency to become angry.
Tiredness=Increase in tendency to think negative thoughts

Today was yet another busy day for me. Yes, no breaks non-stop for the whole day. I'm just mentally exhausted but I dont show it through action. It goes to my head directly and makes me so frustrated even more easily. Even now, I can sense that I'm so drained out. Argh and there's maths test tmr. I can predict that I'm gonna fail it tmr. This weekend round I did some work at the expense of my revision. Lousy time management again.

For my friends who have shown me support, I sincerely thank you all. From the bottom of my heart. In these times of need, I really appreciate all the help and concern I can get. I believe even just a simple "How ya been dude?" makes my heart contented. I just need to know that there's people who support me, and I shall not let them down. I never want to let them down. Letting them down, is letting myself down as well. Letting down my own principles. Since people believe in me, there's no way I should disappoint them.

I always remind myself of the bad situation I'm currently in. I'm not that selfish to feel as if the worst person in the whole wide world is me, but I believe I should always think of myself first before I compare myself to others. If I cant even handle myself, how to help others? Let alone comfort myself by saying I'm not the worst yet.

Work hard, work harder, work hardest.

I need advice and help. Lots of it. Just as what Mr Hanis told me when I met and chatted him today, there's no time for me to still be groping in the darkness. I need a clear view and idea of what path I am taking. That's so true.

Lets see how the rest of the week goes... I think I'm too desperate and lost that I just keep trying every kind of method to see if things work. Even if they are harmful.

I may be lost, but at least I am clear of what I want. My goals have never changed and will never change as well.

The Reminder.

2006-05-14T21:18:00.000-07:00

Finally....The start of the week tomorrow. Lots of things to look forward to. Bring on the studying! Gotta occupy myself with school work otherwise I'll turn mad. Wait. I am already mad. So what makes a difference?My time management still sucks. My self-discipline still sucks. This weekend, I managed to do some maths and chem work. But at the expense of my revision of stuff like tests etc. Hell, I DO work, but whether I learnt or remembered anything from it is another matter. That sucks. Horray. I still hate myself. And I even have to keep reminding myself about that too?

What's up with that lousy attitude of mine that makes me keep slacking somehow? I WANT TO DO MORE WORK!!! Need more forced self-discipline. If mind power could overcome things, I hope it works now. Argh.

"Just relax yah Zhiming?" Bleah. I dont think so. I cant relax. I dont want to relax. Yet my performance still isnt up to standard. I believe that I somehow will continue bitching about how I hate myself, until it becomes natural for others to feel that I hate myself naturally. I dunno.

Irritating! I need something MORE! Some kind of motivation. Even my anger doesnt last me long enough. Thinking back about the past, I feel that I wasted my life away again. Be honest man. Yes I did learn stuff. But if I did learn that much, would I be in such a predicament now? Still the same old Zhiming that believes that he's the same old person. Better or worse, I dunno. Maybe for all the new things I learnt, I gained new weaknesses. If you get what I mean. Understanding my weaknesses makes me feel even more helpless. Yet it is good to be able to see one's weaknesses. -_- All that philosophical stuff again.

Of course, who doesnt need a break once in a while. But how can I take breaks when I myself dont feel the need for one. And if I am relaxing, its slacking, not relaxing. The only convinced relaxation I will give myself is sleeptime. Anything else is wasting time. Even like blogging. O_O ARGH!!!! I just need to let things out.

Even self-comfort like, " Dont worry, my situation isnt that bad, there are people worse off. " doesnt work. Ok, it sort of helps for the moment. But at the end at the day, why should I compare myself to others, when I am already at rock bottom. The pot calling the kettle black. As I was adviced, I should compare myself with only myself. Self-awareness is the key. Then again I hate myself even more after understanding how lousy I am. Better than before by a bit but still lousy. I admit it. I aint a person that appreciates small achievements. I expect more from myself. More and more and even more. Yet the greater the disappointment.

Of course, even at home I cant show an angry face all the time. It is just not possible to be like that.

I reckon that I'm still not trying hard enough. I'm still not at 100% drive. In face, I even want to be at 200% drive if I could. Now I just get a big failure feeling. Anything that doesnt reach 100% drive is a failure. I mean anything.

Currently, I am convinced that there are 5 necessary things for me to remind myself.

1. The Hate I have for myself

2. My Goals

3. Gaining Self-Recognition

4.Controlling my inner demons to my advantage

5.RESULTS

I should just spend 1/2 an hour everyday to remind myself about these things or something like that.

Another negative post. Its worth it if it can convince and remind myself of what's important.

Enough talk. More action. Time to change to my negative mood.

Results!

2006-05-11T22:04:00.000-07:00

RESULTS! Its always about results. No one gives you recognition without results. Without results you aint worth anything.

Let my inner demons remember. Let it be pierced deep into my heart and brain. I shall hate myself, until I achieve my ultimate goal.

True Feelings.

2006-05-11T21:05:00.000-07:00

Being overcome by anger once again. Yet this time round, I managed to control it. At least avoiding people worked this time round. No one should see my dark side. Or at least see it face to face. Sometimes its just a better idea to leave me alone. I would rather suffer myself, than show my weakness to others.

I kind of understand what the reasons this time round are. "Temporary distractions" I guess. Being happy around friends. Being happy around councillors. Being distracted when doing council related work. Yet at the end of the day, when all things are over, I still feel angry over everything. Its not that people dont understand how I feel. I believe they feel it too. But people approach things differently. Some always stay optimistic because only by doing so can they work at their most potential.

People like me, well I always care about what kind of a person I am. It isnt about Mid Years, it isnt about A Levels. It is about the pride I hold for myself. Stubborn pride. To respect others, I must learn to respect myself first. And yet I always fail myself over and over again. To prove to myself finally that there are goals which I can achieve in life.

Yes. I am battling against myself. Battling against my inner demons, battling against my beliefs.

Sorry my friends. If I disappointed you all. It may seem hypocritical that I'm happy when I'm with you all, but yet the true me at the end of the day is actually so angry inside. I have kept my promise, of not showing how angry I am inside, and letting my bad mood affect others. At least you all should know that I always try my best to respect the requests of my friends.

I have always highly regarded respect as a very important way of how I live my life. I guess cause pride is so closely related to respect. To me the most important part of a friendship is to have mutual respect. Earn my respect, and I shall fully give you mine as well, if not twice as much. But then, disrespect me, and the inner demons will reveal themselves without hesitation.

Maybe that's why I am so closely attached to council. I have finally found people who have shown me the kind of respect that I desired, if not more. Yet I feel that I am unworthy of such respect, cause of my lousy performance in studies. I hate myself. Its easy to make friends, hard to keep true friends, even harder to find true friends who will respect you and support you always.

Ultimately, I hate myself for being unworthy of people's respect. I still hate myself more than anything else. More than feelings of loneliness. More than feelings of uselessness. I hate myself, for forever never reaching my goals. I just need a trace of hope. One which is gained from my very own hard work, not by the help of the Gods or luck.

I wish to be able to gain my own recognition of myself.

Bad feelings gone with the rain.

2006-05-11T17:04:00.000-07:00

Dudes, I failed another test again. Haiz made me feel so sad and angry over myself just now. But its gone, just like that shower of rain that just came and went. Ok. Point proven. Talking to friends does help. At least even a bit of encouragement makes a big difference to me I guess. Thank you all. Well, time to continue to try out that method of using " negative feelings" to motivate my drive. Decided to stay back to help out with the last banner painting of Aesthec. This weekend, there's lots of work to be done. No more unnecessary slacking. At least even if I do so, then it must be worthwhile. Just slack, be done with it, and continue doing work even harder to make up for it. Rather than bitching and going round in circles. Argh. -_-"

Ok. At least my level of seriousness when doing work has increased to some extent. And at least I dont really get too angry till I flare up. Maybe doing homework when I'm angry gets the stress away...lol But I'm getting angry to do homework... Weird...

OK then. Back to discussing stuff with Cleo and Swee Wei who are with me at the council room now.

Must Study!!!

2006-05-10T22:21:00.000-07:00

Argh! What am I doing with my life? Losing motivation yet again. What happened to all that self-discipline of mugging at home? I seemed to have reached rock bottom these 3 days. Havent done anything for nuts. What's going on sia. Mid Year is SO CLOSE!!!! I need to get myself together. That fucking brain of mine isnt getting enough sense again. I need to stop slacking! Argh! All talk no action. I reap what I sow. I'm gonna be fucked up if I continue at this rate. Must study! Heck care everything else. So many distractions nowadays. Need to realise the long term goal ahead. Ok at least the fact that I'm bitching now means I havent forgotten what's important.

Need more stress! Stress reminds me to stop slacking. Relaxing puts all that effort I put in down the drain. Yes, no matter what means possible, I must accomplish what I have started! Sianz ah! Why did things turn out like this again. ANGRY!!!! I hate myself for being so weak. For being so useless. For never treasuring the goals I have set for myself. Yes, I so so hate myself. No matter what sacrifice, regardless of whether it makes me stressed, resulting in my temper getting worse, or resulting in a boring lifestyle, there is work that must be done. Crap, I'm back at square one. OMG. I'm still in a fucked up situation yet again.

As Mr Kwek says, suffering for this half a year to get good grades is worthwhile, as it is a small sacrifice compared to what you will gain in future, for the rest of your life.

Oh yes, my classmate recently told me, rather than the universe rewards effort, not excuses, the universe rewards results, not effort. True indeed.

Goals, determination, priorities, all that is bullshit when you dont put in action. The things that motivate me actually have no true motivational value at all. I need to find something even more effective. Something that lies even deeper within my heart. Something that 100% makes me put in effort. I believe that thing, is anger. Haha. The irony that I am going to accept something which I have been fighting against all since forever. I am beginning to see things in a different view now. If you cant fight it, then join it. Use it to your own advantage. Finally. I see a use for my own weaknesses. I'm so desperate now.

If being angry does get things done, I dont mind. If being unhappy gets things done, I wont mind too. These are necessary sacrifices. Looks like I'm destined to be unhappy till my studies improve. Being happy is a choice. Being angry is a choice. Feeling fucked up is an emotion. Emotions lead to choices. And so I have made a choice. I shall move forward, with anger as a motivation. Why should I relax when it only leads to me feeling so lost and fucked up again. Who doesnt want to relax? But at this point of time, I cant. I mustnt. There is a thin line between relaxing and slacking. I cant afford to relax!!!! ANGRY!!!!

Ultimately, the greatest thing I fucking hate the most in this whole wide world, is myself.

More Effort!

2006-05-08T20:48:00.000-07:00

What a tiring day today. Ok, I kind of got back into the "studies is important" mode. Well, which means more stress yet again. Today, people just seemed to be getting on my nerves. They are either making LOTS of unnecessary noise, or they just give me the wrong attitude. Knowing myself, I was like this close to releasing the demon again. Thank god I didnt. And it was by pure luck. Well at least when I was in that state of getting angry, I thought about how some people had reminded me earlier on to keep my anger in check. And so I did. Maybe it helped to some extent at least. I dont expect a pat on my back though. The demon inside continues to sneer at me.

Yet, it just feels so regretful. Oh, the satisfaction I would get if I were to just shut up those people straight in the face. FEAR me for all I care. Irritating noise pierces through all my nerves into the brain and acts as the driving power of the demon. Today was a lucky day for those people I guess. Hopefully the same thing wont repeat itself.The 1st half of the day was so negative. Things got slightly better later. Cause I occupied myself with homework. No matter how clear I am of the negative consequences, which angry person would care about anything else while he's angry? Of course I know its wrong. Of course I know why its bad. Yet at times it just feels necessary to let things out. Too bad my most effective way is to start going berserk. But well today's over. Time to forget about it and to move on. Any improvement no matter how small counts.

Today, I got back my bio test. Haiz, as expected I still got a long way to go. 16/45 , an O Grade. This time I surely put in effort, but well, its recognised by all its a long and difficult road to climb up the ladder to success once you dropped to rock bottom once. So MORE EFFORT!! But to be honest I'm quite demoralised also lah. Even though I surely gained some confidence with my own efforts. Starting to feel so tired again... But well people seem to be quite supportive of me. There's a little sign of hope within me I guess. But its not strong enough to support me yet. To increase my confidence, I will need to put in more effort, and convince myself with results. Though of course, the motto " You reap what you sow" doesnt apply all the time. Some people keep putting in effort but gain nothing, and the disappointment becomes even bigger. Its a risky bet I guess.

Argh...headache sia. I need to relax. Yet again, I cant. Argh...

Priorities yet again?

2006-05-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

Another week has passed... Now its week 8th of the term! Only 46 days left till Mid Year Exam! The clock continues ticking, yet somehow though I have made some progress, it never seems to feel enough. So many things to do, so little time, and I aint a machine after all. You cant expect a person to rot at home a whole week studying stuff, and have no side effects. I guess all that tiredness is converted back into an increase in temper tendencies... So point taken. Rotting at home to study isnt that a good thing after all.

Guess I need to remember to take the chance to relax too. But, relaxing too much brings me back to my original state in the first place whereby relaxing too much makes me forget about the goals ahead of me. Stuck between a rock and a hard place now I guess. Its always so hard to find the balance of things. Well anways regardless of all that, thinking about it will only result in going in circles again. Which was what happened the previous time I was frustrated about stuff. So, same rule applies. Forget about other things and just focus on moving forward. Priorities.

And at the same time, I'll have to take note that the demon in me doesnt get unleashed again.

-_-" It always wins in one way or another. Argh. It aint easy knowing how hard it is to overcome a weakness that you have known since the beginning.

The fight continues! Study study study! Busy busy busy! Work hard people. Double motivation yah?

Study Study Study! Busy Busy Busy!

2006-05-05T21:55:00.000-07:00

Hm...finally the weekend. What a week of events...Feels like a very long week indeed... Studies and more studies for the chem and bio test... Internal elections, finally started to know more of the 29th, watched Drama night just now, yeah. Lots of stuff.

Haiz... today my weakness resurfaced again... The same old problem of not being able to stand noise when I get tired... Must have been cause of all that exhaustion from the 5hr lesson marathon... I mean, I dunno if its by reasoning or just by emotion, but somehow noise doesnt suit me when I'm tired. Like I'm already so tired already then still must tahan so much unnecessary noise? Especially when its made by people... Been a long problem. And I mean really LONG. With those other weaknesses which I know about myself. I'm convinced that I'm still a scary person after all. Man, I tried to stay away to cool down...but I still have to enter the "noisy area" cause I have to tell people to "Let's go eat dinner already" ya know? And in the end? End result still the same. Its not that I'm not trying. -_- If it was me of the past, I would have been even more unpredictable. At least now you can "see" when I start to buay tahan. Not that I'm any proud of myself though. Its a long lasting battle and I'm still always at the same level. Bleah. Next time I should use ear plugs or something. Now that's an idea. But its not solving the root of the problem. Which is what I want. The search still continues...

Haiz. Sad. Disappointed myself yet again. The dark side wins again.

Anyways, this weekend I need to pia some homework. Otherwise I'll feel even more bad over myself.

Final Day...

2006-05-01T22:34:00.000-07:00

Rawr!!! The final day of study marathon! The challenge is finally here! Time to see how much I can reap from my efforts. I aint gonna be the same person I used to be last week! As long as I know that I put in the effort, things shouldnt go that bad. Time to continue studying.

Study study study! Busy busy busy!

Work hard everyone!

Study Marathon Day 2

2006-05-01T00:43:00.000-07:00

Woot...Another day of Studying Marathon over.... the final round continues.

What a shag feeling I feel now. O_O Been staring at chem notes for the past few hours, just writing and trying to memorise reactions and equations... Managed to go through carboxylic acids and nitrogen compounds. Man, this studying technique has its flaws too. Ok, I know I'm doing work, but somehow there's not enough balance on my subjects. Like it just seems there's endless work to be done. Which is quite true. I am still lagging behind in homework. -_- Imagine what would have happened if I had gone for council camp. Oh well I must admit I am happy with the effort that I am putting in now. Need to slowly increase the productivity... Summaries appear to be useful after all. At least reading your own hand-written notes gives you a different feeling than from just memorising printed notes...

Lets see how well this works out for the 2 upcoming tests...Shag sia. Study study study! Busy busy busy!

Night visit to NYJC

2006-04-29T11:57:00.000-07:00

Hm...Blogging again.

Ok, I think I can be quite weird at times.

Like, after a whole day of busy events like going for flag day to get some CIP hours, and studying at home, I suddenly at the last moment at night, decide to do some cycling exercise. Destination? NYJC haha. Well I believe everyone knows the reason why.

Anyways, after getting permission from my mom, I set off from home to NYJC at around... 10.15-10.25pm cause I have to repump my bike tyres haha. And I managed to reach the main gate of NYJC at around 10.45pm. Talked with the guard there at 10.48pm, looked around school to see where the councillors were, left the school when the main gate was closed at 11.00pm. Reached home at 11.25pm. About 1 hour of exercise hm... And along the way, I met the 27th who just left from the side gate after synergy. What a coincidence haha. And on my way home, I met this J2 and the first thing he asked was "You got no camp?". And I cycled past and went like "No.". Would be weird if I stopped and explained things to him eh? Anyways I dont think it matters if people saw me or not. Its not like I pon school or anything...

And well, I think its enough to just be there to know the councils are busy doing what they need to do haha. No need to have some dramatic entrance or attract attention... Just left as quickly as I reached. Yes, apparently I was almost gonna make things dramatic, but....nevermind then. I dont need it anyways.

And while I'm typing this, I think the councillors are busy preparing their night walk.Well...hope no one sees any ghosts haha... Well from my point of view, if the councillors wanted to, they could be scarier than any ghosts you'll ever see in NYJC haha. Reason? Cause I havent seen a single ghost in NYJC yet. Not even ghost stories... Like what, the ghost cyclist in red at night who was seen in school? Eh...sounds like me lol. Not that I really went cycling around school though. Just left my bike with the guard. He's quite a nice person haha.

That's about all for now I guess...

Ultimate study marathon! Study! Tests!

2006-04-28T20:49:00.000-07:00

Yo everyone! Phew what a tiring day yesterday was. school from 7.45am to 5.30+ pm non-stop. and me and a few of my classmates had a 5 hour study marathon cause bio remedial which was 2 hours was directly after our last 3 lessons. But well I must say the remedial was quite worth it.

After that grueling 5 hours, I decided to check out how the councillors were coping with council camp preparations. Council camp has finally started haha. Oh well, I did some helping out in moving stuff and then I proceeded to the council room to do some mugging. On overall I managed to spend like around 2 hours worth of studying alone, despite all the "distractions" when councillors needed to collect stuff from the council room haha.

After mugging enough, I decided to make a trip to the canteen to try to photocopy some of my summaries, but it ended up that the school photocopying machines are out of order. -_- Well, anyways I decided to finally take a break, so I walked around and checked out how the council camp was going on. In the end, I went home at around 10.25pm. Haha due to many reasons I stayed till quite late.

Haha I finally realised why Ms Chiew said that I shouldnt have stayed back to see the council camp. I mean like yah, I'm glad that I got to see the councillors and contributed some help, but those negative feelings which I locked up inside me were starting to slowly resurface as I saw myself in the same predicament as before. You feel like you want to help, but you shouldnt, and you end up just "slacking" and wasting precious time which could be used to study. Somehow I knew I needed a break from studying, but slacking again doesnt make me feel any better. -_- I think sleeping is so many more times productive than slacking. When you sleep, people know you're tired. When you slack, people may wonder why are you slacking in the first place. Slacking just means you're still able to do work but you dont want to.

Deciding to excuse myself form council camp turned out to be a right decision after all. As far as I've understood. I'm still not there yet on how to equally revise my three subjects well. At least nowadays I'm like always mugging bio, bio, bio. :p I hope I do well for the upcoming test. These three days I shall need to mug chemistry too...

Oh well, time for another Studying Marathon at home. Chem Test on tuesday and Biology Test on wednesday! Lets Go!! Enough fretting over bad feelings... which is what I always do. Time to remember what's important, and to move forward. I need to reminded about reality once in a while. Being too carefree makes me....lose track of my goals.

And if any of you councillors at council camp ever get to see this post, jia you yah? Do not leave back any regrets.

And now... Study! Study! Study! Busy! Busy! Busy!

NAPFA Silver! Revived feelings.

2006-04-26T09:12:00.000-07:00

Hm...what a day.

Today, I finally got Silver for NAPFA!!! 1st time ever wah haha.... And I amazed myself too cause I finally achieved one of my goals haha... Ok believe it or not I was like stuffing myself with potato chips while I was revising bio notes last night and the only exercise I did was on Monday. Ok at least today turned out quite well. Rawr! Completed everything at one go. Well, that's one less worry to think about. Still have to maintain my fitness though. Exercise exercise!

Well, after school I decided to stay back in school to do work cause, like yeah it takes time for me to settle down at home, so why not just study in school immediately? I dont bring so BIG bags to school for nothing ok? But I must admit... sooner or later either my arm or my back is gonna break. Or the bags. Wait, they ARE breaking already. My mom had to do a bit of sewing to the bag I always wear on my back. Oops... Well as for the other bag I hold in my hand, it's two compartments have "combined" cause the centre portion tore liao. Ok....time to look for a new bag soon. Maybe one with a sling or something, I dunno. Ok I cant really imagine how I'll look like walking around school if I got that. I'm like the only guy in school who uses 2 BIG bags for dunno what. Sekali people thing I want attract attention only. Ok actually I think people think I'm some nerd and just forget about it haha. Carrying 2 bags after completing NAPFA today was yet another obstacle lol.

Besides that, oh well today was quite productive so far when I was studying in the council room. One of the more quieter places in school where you wont get bothered at all. Its quite far away from any noise pollution too. Put on the earphones, listen to music, and off to studying. Though studying alone has its cons too. No one to approach to when you have questions. But questions can be asked another day as long as you note them down.

Well, I must admit I'm quite happy cause I didnt end up falling asleep while I was doing work alone. At least not like last time. Ok I got a bit giddy at one time and like enter into a stone trance, but it got over after I looked out at the window to divert my attention away for a while. After spending around 3+ hours doing work at one go, I decided to take a break and went down to see what the councillors were doing. As I were informed, some of them were busy preparing firewood for council camp. Lots of hammering, breaking wood, pulling out nails and stuff. And well, I initially intended to just walk by and ask how they were doing, but as I stood there watching them work, its like yah I just felt I had to help them out. I would have felt so bad if I were to just walk off like that. So as a last minute decision, I ended up helping them out too. Labour intensive industries again haha. Well I admit, I enjoyed every moment of it. Feels like the old times when we always worked together through thick and thin. Which is what made me feel so strongly connected to council. Me and my strong sense of responsibility again. Or as people say.

Well, ok I could have spent the time on studying, or rather I should have, but maybe I just needed that break. I havent felt so satisfied as today. My past week was a terrible one. And nowadays its just studies studies studies. So using some time to get my mood back isnt so bad an idea after all. The sense of having revived feelings. Haha. But yes, priorities are always priorities. At least I aint rejecting myself from studying at home now. Even after today I still feel ok to contribute some more energy, no matter how little, into doing some revision after such a busy day. I can sense a slow improvement in me I guess. Just have to continue working hard.

Hm, at the end of the day, I'm reminded of another one of the philosophies which I always remember in my heart. That is to always be accountable to yourself. Anything is ok as long as you know you contributed your part, and you dont blame yourself. Haha...I seemed to have forgotten that for a long time. Its suddenly back again. :)

Ok. Back to work. After all that talk, its back to action yet again. I must not let myself down again. Nor the family and friends who care for me and support me as well.

Continue forward!

Finally moving forward.

2006-04-25T10:51:00.000-07:00

Ok.... The difficult stage of having all that mental distress is finally over. At least for now I guess. After all that thinking, now comes putting everything into action. Sometimes, you keep trying to find the correct answer to your problems, but in the end you also realise that everyone is just always going in circles haha. Independant learning is important after all. People just need time to "force" themselves to forget their troubles, weigh which is more important, and then focus on the more important stuff. I dunno how many times I have mentioned this word "Priorities", but yes its easy to say things. So much harder to put them into action.

Once again, make yourself move forward Zhiming. The future isnt that bad after all... The present is where to put in all that hard work. The past is to reflect upon after everything has ended.

I learnt a new philosophy for myself today, "Do not compare yourself with others, but with yourself." In other words, rather than always competing with others, compete with yourself and see how much you have improved. Being self-aware and setting realistic goals, hopefully will help me out in my journey forward.

Work hard too everyone, and I will still need the support of everyone of you all as well. Thank you all for being so understanding.

Life. Taking the step forward.

2006-04-22T12:02:00.000-07:00

What a difficult week it has been for me. Struggling between my own deepest values in life. Priorities. Friends. Goals. The Past Vs The Present. But its all over. I must not let the past hinder my progress. I must move forward, and not disappoint those who have understood and supported me. Decisions have been made, and I will have to live with them. The past haunts me. The present fights me. The future remains unknown. Regardles of all that, I must move forward.

Yes Zhiming, stop bitching about the past and just move on. Bitch all you want when its finally over. There are more important things left for me to accomplish. Very important things.

Understanding my weaknesses has brought me to a different level, but the journey never ends. The learning never stops. The fighting should never stop as well.

I must prove that the future lies in my own hands. It is my life. No one elses.

Studies. Council. The Future.

2006-04-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

Hi hi everyone, guess who's back.

Yes, time for some reflections yet again. Zhiming's confused over life matters yet again.

Somehow, life at school has changed greatly. Situations come, and people change according to the situations to suit them as well.

Here's my situation now.

1)Ever been the last few people in studies for the whole JC2 school cohort? Yes, I'm there.
2) Ever been last in studies for your CCA? Yes, I'm that too.
3) Ever felt so helpless at studies? Yes, its happening now.
4) Ever felt so angry at yourself? Yes.
5) Ever felt being selfish when you prioritise studies, at the cost of sacrificing friendships? Yes.
6) Ever felt negative feelings towards council? Yes.

I'M IN A FUCKED UP SITUATION NOW PEOPLE!!!!

Right...I just had to say that.

Ok.... I had another heart to heart talk with my bro on tuesday. And I met Mr Kwek today regarding my studies. So, I have come to realise a lot of things... Or at least I was reminded of them. Life is a bitch. Recently, I have come to realise how selfish I can be. Ok, seeing how I have put studies as my MAIN priority, everything else seems insignificant now. Friends, council, entertainment at home. There's no time left to waste on these things. Time is scarce. I need to be productive! At least that's what I'm starting to feel. When I miss council activities, at the end of the day I feel like " Right...I wasnt needed anyways. They surely can manage everything themselves." And when I do go for council activites, I keep considering if I'm actually being productive or wasting precious time. Horray I'm starting to habour these negative feelings. And they will stay as long as I dont get some decent results for my studies. I'm like such a bastard now. Sorry if I offended anyone. The situation just forces me to think this way. I dont like it myself. How I wished I still could be as relaxed as anyone else. But I dont think so. Its relaxing too much that has gotten me to this fucked up stage.

Ok given how I currently feel, I think maybe I should avoid the councillors now. At least until I'm needed for the compulsory council meeting regarding council camp. Even to this stage, I swear that I will not just drop council like this. I believe in respecting those that have respected me back. I shall follow through with council till the very last end. And share the last moments with them. Though I do not know what kind of mentality I will be in then. Maybe being angry over studies again. I dont know.

Ok... I know that its a bad habit of mine to always be pondering about what has happened in the past, rather than moving myself forward. Hey, isnt it past mistakes that make us push ourselves forward? Learn things the hard way.

63 DAYS LEFT to Mid Years.... My next major obstacle.

Today, I met Mr Kwek for a short meeting after school. Ok obviously the moment I sat down with his at his office, the first thing he did was to show me a full list of the performance of all the J2s for block test. Guess what? My name is like ar the bottom 20 in that 900+ students list. Finally the nail gets hammered in. Triple Fs= FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED. Argh. Ok other than being reminded of the risk that I'm in, by the way the list said something like "students not retained to J1" or something, so that doesnt feel better either. Ok, Mr Kwek saw that I was a councillor and joked to me saying " Do you want to go for a second round of elections?". Well I cant blame him for putting it that way. I was like this close to getting retained. And thank god I wasnt. Hey, I dont believe in God anyways. Well Mr Kwek wasnt that bad after all. After talking with him, there were a few points for me to take note.

1) The risk I'm currently in. Hanging from a cliff with only my fingertips.

2) For those who got excellent results for the tests, they are like people who take taxi to Orchard Road. I'm someone who needs to walk to Orchard Road. Meaning? I will have to take the more difficult and more time consuming path to reach the same level as they are. And I will have to walk to Orchard Road without a map. Meaning again? I will have to ask for directions to reach my destination. Ok in other words Mr Kwek wants me to seek friends and my tutors for to help me in my studies. It isnt a shameful thing to do. And there's also the time constraints. When September comes, which teacher or friend will be free enough to still help me out? Everyone will be busy with their own activities. So I will have to start early.

3) The Grade Gap. Lets say I want to get Triple B for A Levels. How many gaps is that? F, O, E,D,C,B. That's jumping 5 grades. And from what Mr Kwek says, jumping 1 grade needs around 1 month. Which means mass mugging at one go for 5 months. And how many months left till A Levels? 6 months. 3 subjects means I will have to mug triple times harder. Right....is there still time to be relaxing now?

4) Well Mr Kwek ended off with saying, he didnt want to take up too much of my time, and rather I leave earlier to go study. He's quite a nice person I must say. I asked him regarding the June holidays studying schedule, and he says its confirmed already but he doesnt want to reveal the plans yet cause he wants the schedule to be more flexible for the students. Its not a punishment, but he wants to create a culture where everyone can study in. Imagine. If you enter a room and see everyone in the room studying, doenst that make you feel gulity if you dont study? Like yeah that's the culture he wants to create. And I agree. Maybe council seems too carefree to be suitable for my current situation. Maybe its cause is near the end of the council term bah.

5) Also, to consider my future. NUS and NTU certs are recognised all over the world. There are some schools where not all the certs are recognised. And schools like NUS are also cheaper compared to private schools like SIM which are so much more expensive. Cheap and good, as he says. Ok, I never knew that before. That's an interesting point to consider.

6) Finally, no matter what Mr Kwek says, the most important decisions still lies with myself. Whether to be self-disciplined, and put into action hard work, or to end up " Contributing without recognition". Who remembers a councillor who gets triple Ds for A Levels? Well, no one. 3Ds dont get you anywhere, and its off to NS you go. Then really gone fuck already. Ok not really the end of the world, but its fucked up.

-The universe rewards effort, not excuses.
-God does not help those who do not help themselves.
-You reap what you sow.
-Time is scarce. Productivity!
-The future lies in my own hands. I must mould my own future without any regrets.

My family, my classmates and friends, my tutors, please support me through this difficult period of my life. I beg you all.

Hopefully, I will be proud of myself next year. And become a man. A man who managed to finally achieved his own goals in life. Wtf man. Being 18 makes a huge difference.

O2 Ad Hoc Dinner + Good Friday!!

2006-04-14T20:35:00.000-07:00

What a day, what a day, what a day....

Yo everyone, another update, and finally we get to see some pictures... wah haha.

Yesterday was O2 Ad Hoc dinner! We went to the Furama Hotel, and ok we had a funny experience cause in the beginning we got lost at around Chinatown while we were trying to look for it. Apparently there's Furama City Centre and Furama Riverside. That sure caused a bit of confusion. Well anyways we ended up "trekking" for an hour before we finally found it haha. At least all that walking made us hungry and fully prepared for the buffet that we were having. The restaurant is called the Kintamani Indonesian Restaurant. Refer to the pictures I uploaded to see what its like haha. Too bad we didnt take a picture of the overall building though...after all that effort just to get there.

Well at the restaurant, its back to the usual stuff of cracking jokes, commenting on how the food was like, talking about basically anything under the sun. And everyone ended up becoming quite bloated... Well after the dinner, we decided to visit the Esplanade to chill out for the night. And along the way, we went to the Fullerton Hotel and checked it out. And like yah... can see why Fullerton is such a hot choice for Dinner and Dance haha. And yeah, after chilling out for some time at the Esplanade, everyone went home.

Hm...apparently as time has passed, my blog posts are getting less and less detailed haha... Maybe it happens to everyone.

Today at home, I finally managed to concentrate hard enough and did my tutorials.... Feeling quite satisfied with my effort put in haha. Ok I still took like around the whole day to complete 2 maths tutorials, but at least I'm completing things one step at a time. Must continue on like this! Maybe cause the maths tutorial wasnt that difficult I guess. As long as if the ans was wrong I always managed to get back the correct ans after I check through my working and noticed what went wrong. Not bad haha.

Tomorrow is Maths lecture and Mock Q&A for council. Let's go!

Pictures

The entrance of the restaurant

Yup, this is what the inside looks like. See the table we are sitting at?

Its so close to all the foods haha. Quite convenient.

GP Essay Ownage...

2006-04-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

Currently doing GP Essay with my classmate online...I havent stayed up to do work since....dunno when haha. Ok first time being forced to do work while being half brain dead....What a weird feeling. I'm so gonna be a zombie at school later...Yet another long day! OMG.... Cannot make it liao. "Zhiming got owned by GP Essay and lack of sleep". Right... lets see how things go at school later. Tired man...

Significance of Planning

2006-04-09T21:29:00.000-07:00

Finally, the pieces of the puzzle are starting to fall into place. Planning does help a lot in determining my priorities... The hunger for studying!!! Results are all that matter now... With good planning, all's left is to implement it. Yes, time management has always been my weakness. Time to try out a new strategy for studies... I believe it will work out well. It MUST! It's do or die now... I need to keep reminding myself of this priority. Maybe working out plans does suit me after all. As long as I get to plan out everything nicely. Other than Mid Years, I need to make sure my performance for tests improves as well. Work hard.... I really need to work hard.

A NEW START!!!!

2006-04-01T21:08:00.000-08:00

Yes everybody, miracles dont happen. At least from my point of view. You reap what you sow, as simple as that. Finally, its like the time for me to start some serious planning for my studies.

Orientation 2 has taught me a lot about myself and my weaknesses.

Block Test has once again made me realise how dire the current situation I am in is.

I suck at my studies. Period. Now its time to do something about it. One step at a time.

As always, even God does not help those who do not help themselves.

Morale of the story? I better get down to some serious planning and put lots of extra effort into my studies. LOTS OF IT!!! And in the meanwhile, some exercise will do great to remind me that I'm setting my mind on what things I want to do. So studies and exercise!!

Next goal: MID YEAR! I"M GONNA SHOW SOME RESULTS!!!!

Orientation 2 Day 1

2006-03-21T21:16:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone, so how was block test today? I hope everyone's coping fine. Well I need all luck I need for my make-up block tests next week. Today it was proven that even if I try, I think I wont really be able to have much of a chance to be mugging stuff while I am involved in organising Orientation 2 with the council. All the more I need to convince myself to mug at home.

Well, today's outcome for the first day of orientation turned out quite well. Yeah, some logistics problems did crop up, but they were all able to be settled without any disruption of the programme. The most irritating thing today for me was really about AVA issues such as walkie talkies and mikes running LOW on batteries...Then I have to like go source for new batteries from Mr Chionh. Other than that games logistics were simple enough to handle cause it was basically logist for only 3 games? Haha. Tomorrow will be 7 games at once... but yeah I believe that I will be able to handle things. Its just loaning out and retrieving logist, and the councilors are responsible people who I can trust haha. I just hate the re-packing. But anyways its boxes anyways so its easier to repack back stuff. Glad I scrapped the idea of using lots of trash bags... Makes everyone's life easier.

And amazingly, I managed to last through the whole day, with only around 4 hours sleep last n ight. Dunno what's going on. I guess I definitely need to sleep early tonight. Well 3 more days to go. After the first 2 days, the other two days should be simple enough to organise. Lets see how things go. Tomorrow got work to do again... Sianz need to mug!

Sometimes, I wonder if I am giving myself too much stress. Things which are beyond my control often make we wonder why things went wrong in the first place. Then there will be two outcomes, either I blame people, or I blame myself. And its mostly the latter. Am I too serious in my attitude? I think I still dont really understand myself well. I guess I really should seek other people's opinions. At a point of time, I always thought this kind of things should be discovered by your ownself, but apparently its come to the stage whereby I know that I just cant figure out what's really wrong by myself.

Lets see how things go then. Just so confused...

Block Test and O2

2006-03-19T21:37:00.000-08:00

Block Test Finally Starts Tomorrow!
Orientation 2 Starts on Tuesday!!!

RAWR!!!! LET THE CHALLENGE BEGIN!!!!

Haha.... Good luck everyone! Wish you all the best.

CHIONG AH!!!! POWER 100%!!! Let nothing stop in your way...

If you want success, put in ALL your effort! You reap what you sow... Have no regrets...

Cya all at school!

March Mugging Hols + Block Test Coming!!

2006-03-17T22:58:00.000-08:00

What a fast week this has been... Yeah, the March holidays this time round for me still feels like a school week to me haha. Cause I have convinced myself to go to school for everyday of this week and get down to some hard mugging... Oh well I must say I spent quite a lot of time in school, but my productivity is less than satisfying. I feel I could have done better bah :P That's what happens when you need to spend time revising through notes to understand the concepts... which should have been done like long ago. Well I spent most of my time either revising stuff or writing summaries... The only work I really did was some maths questions haha. Argh I need t buck up! My confidence level isnt that high now haha. But still must do my best!!! GRR!!!

Well apparently throughout this week I basically mugged at quite a lot of different places in the school, other than the canteen. Monday was the classrooms, tuesday was the library, wednesday was the i-space, thursday and friday were the library again. And in the mornings while waiting for my classmates to join me, or for the library to be opened, I mugged at the Ebloussiant until the hot sun came out and chased us away haha.

And I think I have come to the conclusion that the best way to keep away while mugging, is to....either eat lots of snacks to keep yourself occupied or talk with friends. Yes music helps abit, but I think its more of something to stop yourself from getting bored. You can sleep while listening to music right? Haha. K there's bound to be distractions, but yeah I figured its more productive for me when I mug with friends. If I were to mug alone at home I would either be sleeping or using the computer. And you can also ask them for advice too, what a win-win situation. Of course you must draw the line between when to get serious and do work, or to take a break and just talk cock about some stuff.

2 more days to Block test... FINAL RUSH AH!!! Then after that is directly O2. Yes, I was doing O2 logistics at school today haha... Its hard to separate yourself from council even though they mentioned that March holidays is a off-duty week for councillors. I myself have some logistics which need to be settled next Monday haha. All the small small matters bleah. Oh well its a matter of being responsible towards council work bah. Priorities....yet again.

And I dunno why, but I seem to be losing stuff doing the holidays. All the small small items. And I lost my council badge! I wore it on wednesday cause I wore full school uniform to school, and now its missing... Haiz... What's up with that? I hate losing stuff....grrr. Especially those with sentimental value.. Oh well lets hope I find it before monday. Otherwise I'll have to buy another one. Some times its the case of, when you want to find it, you cant find it. But when you dont try to find it, you find it. Losing things are just so...weird. I wish I had some ultimate tracking machine or something... Then the world wouldnt need to have "lost and found" issues ever again. Yes, dream on I guess...Bleah I'm just feeling pissed at losing something important again..

The weekend starts tomorrow... I believe I should get some rest from the tiring days I had earlier on. Yes, I didnt get the chance to slack at home and just sleep haha. At most it was "Power-napping" between mugging at school.

Good luck to everyone for upcoming Block Test. Mug hard, have no regrets. Well that's what I convince myself to do. Even though there's bound to be regrets at the end of the day.

Cya all then!

11th March Flag Painting + Protocol Briefing

2006-03-11T20:44:00.000-08:00

Alamak!!!! I hate myself for what happened today.... Lost my temper yet again at small matters....haiz. So sorry everyone. Man, its just that I always cannot stand it when I'm like tired and then people suddenly get really noisy. Depends on the situation bah. I dont always flare up whenever there's noise. It just has to be the unlucky combination of factors... as always.Its a bad habit of mine haiz. Yes, bad habits die hard. GRR!!! And thanks everyone for respecting me...apparently nobody made a big fuss towards my reaction. Maybe its just cause it isnt the first time I did that. :p People came to see if I was ok, people came to cheer me up, people just kept quiet and didnt make it an even more embarassing situation for me.And some people even came to apologise to me even though it wasnt even their fault at all haha. Thanks a lot everyone. The more this kind of thing happens to me, the more I realise that I shouldnt be doing it. Yet it never seems to stop...Haiz. Anger management... Where did all those de-stress techniques I learnt before go to? Hm.... well maybe its true that a hungry man is an angry man.

Well anyways, yesterday, I did some packing of logistics after school and stayed back a while to see the O2 skit rehearsal. Well then I left home cause I figured I wasnt really needed after all, so after eating dinner at home I went out to get my hair cut. No more worries abt not combing hair and stuff like that. And straight fringes just look weird...Bleah. Well, I'm quite happy with my new hairstyle. 1st time I tried out a "spiky" hair style. And yes I mean 1st time.... lol I havent changed my hair style at all in ages. Tried growing long and ended up didnt like it after all. Maybe my hair just grew long in an ugly way bah. :P Ok seems weird talking so much abt my hair. Well next topic.

People are so funny. When a situation crops up, we rack our brains hard in order to think of "what if" situations and try to think of a solution, and then people get stressed out. And then what happens? It ends up that the situation wasnt at bad as expected, and in fact we didnt need to worry at all after all. -_- Killing brain cells for no reason man.... Oh well maybe people just think too much some times cause for some cases the only thing you can do is " when the actual thing comes then see how". Next time must make backup plans in advance... Then wont need to worry abt last minute cock-ups...yeah. "Assumption is the mother of all screw-ups." as what I've heard from a movie once.

This morning, cause I was worrying abt the issue of not having enough paint for flag making later on, I woke up earlier so that I could find out from my Mom where I could buy paint early in the morning. She tried explaining to me using the street directory, then I figured since it was still early, we could make a trip to the actual shop so that I could see where it was. So we left home at around 6.00am and after showing me where the paint store was, I was dropped off at the school's main gate at 6.16am. Personally, I was hoping and expecting for the main gate to be opened at around 6.30am. And so at 6.16am, there I was sitting by the side of the pavement, listening to music and trying to mug some Alkanes and Alkenes with only the yellow light coming from the street light as a light source. That must have been some lonely looking scene. The only next better light source was the white lights which were used to shine on the words ( Nanyang Junior College) at the main gate, but I figured it would look like some weird desperate mugger if I were to stand there haha. So I passed the idea.

After mugging a while, I figured there was no point for me to strain my eyes under such bad conditions. So I stopped after going through 1 set of notes. And I think bad conditions really force you to memorise better cause you will want it to be worth the effort... Well anyways, it appears that I had made a wrong bet that it was more likely for the main gate to be opened earlier than the side gate. So irritating.... the gate ended up opening at 7.05am. And at a point of time while I was waiting, I was like " Oh its finally bright, and I'm still outside the darn gate. -_- Some of my friends asked me why I didnt walk over to the side gate earlier on, but my reason is " Would you walk to the other gate after you have already been waiting for the past 30mins?" It defeats the whole purpose of waiting if you in the end decide to change your decision. Oh well of course this mentality doesnt work all the time. Imagine if the gate never ever opened, then I would really be regarded as some really dumb idiot. Right...

Well then the moment I could enter school it was rush off to the council room to prepare logistics for the flag painting later on. Canvas, paint, brushes, thinner, rags, cups, MPR , the sound system, all the necessary stuff. Well there were a few weird cock-ups here and there. Like when I accidentally caused the green paint can to tip over inside the box I was carrying it with...result? Green paint in a box. And to conserve as much paint as possible I had to scoop out the paint.. Like what's up with that? Ok seemed dumb but it happened to me anyways. Luckily nobody saw me clearing up and stuff haha.. So paiseh.

The flag making today went quite smootly and the OGLs managed to complete all their flags today, including tying them to the poles. No more need for logistics comm to come down during the hols to help complete flags haha. Horray. The only bad thing at the end was that there were so many patches of paint on the MPR floor.... Apparently we were tio con and the floor wasnt as clean as we thought it would be when everyone said that it was checked already... Me, Choy, Jinfa, Siti, Wei Jun and Ms Yap ended up being like maids cleaning the paint patches on the MPR. We even ended up cleaning paint patches which were like weeks or months old. Well the MPR is clean now. It had better stay like that, after all that hard effort put into using brute force, cloth and thinner to remove the stains. We have to do extra work cause we werent slacked in the checking part. Buay tahan. Well its our responsibility anyways. Since we decided to use the venue. But...wiping the floor aint that fun yah? :P

After Ms Yap was satisfied with the cleaniness of the MPR floor, we then took a break after all that work. Then while we were slacking me and Jinfa went to the hall to check out the O2 vetting. The skit was accepted, even though I still feel that it would be better if we could add more action packed scenes into it. Well, due to time constraints we have no choice. I had my share of fun already in O1, so now I just wish the O2 skitters the best too haha. This time round my role has changed. O2 Logistics head! Not a easy position to be if you ask me... Maybe its cause of the way I work haha. Still have a lot of learning to do. We shall see on the actual day if I have understood the messages which the teachers and my friends have been trying to convey to me.

After clearing of logistics, it was time for protocol briefing. Well protocol briefing wasnt too complicated, and yeah everyone gave feedback and stuff when they saw problems or errors or had queries.

Then after protocol briefing was done, O2 ad hoc met up with Mr Tan and Ms Yap to discuss about protocol issues like pizza night and movie night, and to confirm if each committee had any problems to raise.

Then when things were mostly settled, we all left home, and it rained really heavily. And I'm at home now recharging my body... Tmr got driving practical lesson, so must sleep early.

Oh man... another day gone. Another day closer to blog test. I need to keep reminding myself to perservere. Jia You everyone!! Make good use of the week ahead to pia studies. Same goes for me.

THE DECISION!!!

2006-03-09T21:25:00.000-08:00

Yes, here I am blogging, wasting precious time which can be used for studying. But I guess I just want to tell all my friends and people I know my current stand.

Here's the situation: I have made an oath to myself, and a promise to my parents. I MUST NOT FAIL THEM! I MUST STUDY!! I am not joking. I am serious.

I wish to tell all my friends and people who know me, now is the time to support me. At council, I now wish to be efficient so that I dont waste extra time. It stresses me out now whenever I see that council is occupying my mugging time. It cant be helped, so its time for time management. If you ever see me sleeping at lectures or lessons, do me a favour and slap me awake. If you see slacking, tell me to go study.

Studies currently on my list are a higher priority than council. Do not misunderstand me though. I still treasure the friendships I have made from council. And it doesnt mean that my attitude will change. Its just....there's a time for everything. Its time for me to finally put in 100% effort to reach my goals.

If you want respect, you have to earn it.

If you hate something, then do something about it.

If you have stress, then endure and overcome it.

If you have goals, then strive to acheive them.

If you want success, put in ALL your effort, so there are no regrets.

I want to be a winner, not a loser.

Respect yourself, then others will respect you.

"God does not help those who do not help themselves"

This is the way of Zhiming.

NO MORE ANIME

NO MORE SLACKING

NO EXCESS WEBSURFING

NO DISTRACTIONS

MORE STUDY!!!

I plan to pia my holidays at school mugging. All those interested to join can find me. I need help haha.

REN!!! CHIONG STUDIES AH!!!!

6th March Reflections

2006-03-06T22:06:00.000-08:00

Phew... my anger has finally subsided... to almost minimal now. Well maybe its cause I decided not to think too much into it already, and of course I recieved help from the support of my friends and family. Its great to have someone to talk to when you're troubled. Thank you all.

Currently, even though I aint that angry when I reminisce abt what happened, the feeling now is a bit of mix of regret and heart pain. Regretting that I failed being up to my own expectations, and heart pain that after all that effort I put in, at the end of the day I couldnt feel any sense of accomplishment and be happy for myself. Sad...haiz

Oh well, now is not the time for me to stay sad and lose my motivation. There are so many things which are more important and need to be done. If you regret anything, then make sure it doesnt happen again! Though I've always been trying to overcome this weakness of mine. It's been a neverending battle...

Time to pull myself together. CHIONG AH HUANG ZHIMING!!! I shouldn't let these minor things drag me down. Yet another one of my weaknesses. I think I need to remember to let go of things too...

Ikuzo!!! (Let's Go in Japanese)

OGL Workshop: ANGRY!!!!

2006-03-05T21:44:00.000-08:00

What a week, what a week... A lot of things happened this week, new events, new learning experiences...Old faults, same regrets...

On Wednesday 1st March, it was the release of the A Level results. And everyone also recieved their CLAO results. And my whole class doesnt need to study CLAO anymore haha. Good job everyone! On the same day, I was curious and so stayed back to see O2 Skit rehearsal. And council camp Ad Hoc was having their meeting too. Well I bet O1 skitters all miss the good old acting days when we had time to prepare. For O2's skit, things are quite rush cause everyone's busy with school work as well. Oh well, I decided to help them out with the script, out of my own interest. Earlier on in the morning I managed to borrow the portable mike and sound system from Mr Chionh with Mr Tan helping to sign in.

On Thursday. we had an OGL briefing session during common lunch. The turnout ended up being quite big haha, and most thing went quite smoothly I guess. Then after school I went for my 2nd driving prac lesson.

On Friday, I borrowed PE logistics from Ms Yap again during the afternoon. The after school I did logistics with Choy at the storage room. Then I helped out again at O2 skit rehearsal.

On Saturday, 4th March, was finally OGL workshop. The programme for the workshop went smoothly, and was quite successful, but its a sad thing that I have to say, I had committed so many mistakes that day and I feel so regretful and angry.

Then it came to me that the greatest thing I'm angry at is still at myself. Angry for not being prepared enough. Angry for committing mistakes. Angry that I lost myself again. Angry at not being able to overcome my weakness again. Angry for making others worry.

Its not lessons that I feel like writing on paper and remember them, but rather I still feel there's a deeper meaning behind what lesson I should learn from what happened. Just dunno what.

Then I suddenly wondered something. Do I need to get myself so stressed over something that is actually so minor? Do I really need to get so serious over things which I actually have no power over? Maybe I should just dont care that much anymore. It definitely makes life easier. Rather then people don't do it, then you have to do everything and get stressed as a result, why not just dont care and let everyone get screwed? Like hey, nobody's a superman.

Its a first time that I ever considered screwing other people so that they would understand the same trouble I was going through. The hard way. At the beginning of the day, my anger piled up a bit. During the afternoon, I managed to occupy myself with work and forgot all about it. But at the end of the day, well all hell goes loose. Accumulation of anger can just be so scary.

I know what lessons I learnt, but its just those lessons about planning early, giving instructions clearly to people, always have constant communication, and supporting each other when they need help. That's all on being an efficient comm head. But have I learnt anything that can improve my character? I'm still wondering abt that. I'm still reflecting about it.

Just what feels so darn wrong? I believe only I can discover what it is. Now, there's more questions left for me to be answered, yet I feel I am understanding myself more a bit at a time. Maybe that's what stress does. Its an indicator of what's your limit. Whether you can go far, or if you'll always be like that.

When you know what makes you angry, I believe its a useful and powerful tool for controlling your emotions. However, when you still lose control, the sense of failure becomes even greater. Man, I dunno what I'm typing now. Things just feel, wrong.

And when you're at the peak of being angry, its also significant to know who you can depend on to support you and lead you back to the correct way. Well I think that's how I managed to survive till the end of the day. Now I have to learn how to do it without depending on others.

RELAX. Another keyword I have to add to my list of reminders...

And the sad thing is, thinking of how I got angry, makes me angry. What's up with that?

I should just go and sleep now. And hope things wont go out of hand. Yet another long and busy week ahead.

Sianz...unhappy and angry with myself...

27th-28th Feb OGL Workshop Briefing+ Driving Prac

2006-02-28T20:40:00.000-08:00

Yeap yeap, another update.

Monday was relatively ok, I went to settle PE logistics with Ms Yap and later on in the day there was OGL course briefing held for council. And so I reached home at around 8.00pm.

Today, another busy day, and there was Chem SPA haha. Man, I surprised myself during SPA today by making dumb mistakes... Luckily I managed to correct most of them.. Maybe I had spent too much emphasis on memorising Skill D. Oh well what's done is done already.

And today was my first driving practical lesson! Ok was so noob today, but driving is SHIOK wah haha... Well I guess the best way to understand driving is to do the practical. Ok sounds duh.. But yeah, more mistakes means more learning. Was a great experience haha... Today I went through the basics such as changing and using the 1st and 2nd gear, reversing, stopping, and making turns around the practice course. Starting to understand what makes racing so fun...lolz But ok, I was driving like real slow today. The practice felt so long haha. And it rained today too, gave me a chance to use the wipers and anti-mist system :P More driving practice!! Getting addicted liao...

Tomorrow is the release of the A level results, good luck to all my friends who took CLAO. Cancel that subject off your subject combination form!! Haha. Unless you love the language.

I wonder how long tomorrow's day will be. Lets see then.

And for everyone who's reading this, take care of your health too k? So many people falling sick nowadays... Wonder why huh... Not a good sign... Dont stress yourselves out physically and mentally. Just a reminder bah. As for myself I think I need to push myself harder... Grr...

Cya all everyone!

25th-26th Feb Final Theory Test + File Worksheets

2006-02-26T22:09:00.000-08:00

All right! Update time.

Well, this weekend around, I went for Final Theory Practice sessions at SSDC and managed to pass the Final Theory Trial Test today. Yet another step closer to completing driving haha. My final theory test is booked on the 25th March..Now cause of my busy weekly schedule, I had to do some major adjustments to my practical lessons...Well everything's mostly settled now. So no worries, unless new events suddenly start popping out. Now some of my lessons extend until early May hm... And after completing my lessons, its around a 2 month wait before I can go for the final test... Well anyways my practical lessons are starting soon! Can finally get an actual chance at driving a car, though I'm still like 100% newbie now.

And today, I finally did filing of my worksheets... I guess its these small tasks that motivate you to study better. Who feels like studying when you see piles of worksheets everywhere? Well I guess using files will definitely work out well for me...Less troublesome when I look for worksheets too bleah. Its a bad habit of mine to waste time during lessons just to find worksheets grr. I guess I'm just lazy at organising my stuff. Ever wondering why I always bring 2 bags to school? I guess that's a main reason. Well even after I filed those worksheets, I still have to use the 2nd bag to bring the files to school... So I guess me and my bags are inseparable haha.

This coming week will be preparations for OGL workshop... Lets all hope everything goes well.

23rd Feb RI Investiture

2006-02-23T20:56:00.000-08:00

Yeah, another day at school. Today was quite normal other than today we had to use the hall for lectures cause the LT was used for a meeting held in NYJC for the principals of various schools.

And today, me, Swee Wei, Candice and Cleo went for RI Investiture. We had our lessons dismissed at 2.00pm, and my Mom fetched us from school to RI at around 2.30+pm. Well we reached RI at around 2.40+pm and registered our attendance. Luckily we took my Mom's car cause it was raining haha. Anyways, while we were waiting to be ushered to the Shaw Foundation Ceremonial Hall, the few of us had a short tour around the school, led by ours truly haha. Well, walking around RI does bring back memories, even though I myself have forgotten quite a lot of stuff already. There's so much renovation going on now, and even the canteen I used to go to is gone now. But well of course there's a lot of new stuff constructed, and the most obvious example is the completed RJC. Although we didnt really go there to do much exploring today hm...

When everyone was finally ushered to the hall, the programme started and it was the usual format such as entrance of prefects, speeches made by the headmaster (principal), GOH and Head Prefect, and the finale and then the Institution Anthem. And the finale was the whole RI Prefectorial Board (RIPB) singing a song together, which was quite interesting.

After that was refreshments at the atrium, and we finally met up with our "official guide"Juanhe, who showed us and told us more about the contributions and events done by the RIPB. He's a very friendly guy haha. And yeah, I must say he did a good job of entertaining us. And its quite a surprise to find out that he's from NCC and I was his direct senior, and I was oblivious of it. Hm...I knew that I had forgotten a lot of stuff haha. Oh well, not a bad experience exploring RI again. Met some of my old classmates and said hi too haha. And so we toured around parts of RI such as the swimming pool, the gymnasium, the D&T area, the Astroturf etc.

Then after everything, when we signed out, we recieved a custom made gift which is a bottle with a float inside. When you squeeze the bottle, the float inside sinks haha. Boyle's Law hm...

Then after that my Mom came to fetch us back to NYJC where everyone left for home. Quite a fruitful day today if you ask me. And its not cause of missing lessons...

Well lets see what day tomorrow will be like.

22 Feb Games Trial 2+ PT Session

2006-02-22T21:54:00.000-08:00

Hm...What a shag day sia.

Today in the morning during my 1st break of the day, I went to look for Mr Chionh and couldnt find him but found Mr Tam though. Ended up asking Mr Tam to help me approach and inform Mr Chionh for me.

After that was PE lesson, after some arm training and leg exercises, we had a bit of volley ball again today. Nothing much though.

Following that was Bio lecture and GP presentation. Hm...It seems my presentation was too wordy haha. Sorry if it made any of my classmates bored.. Then we had MST and reading programme.

And for council today, we had Games Trial 2 meeting and Council PT! Apparently today's attendance was quite low... I wonder why sia. Then cause of that demonstrations for the games were cancelled. I ended up borrowing PE logistics for nothing again... Oh well that's the life of doing logistics. Better than have it, and dont need it rather than need it and dont have it. Sounds logical yah? Then after Game Trial briefing was over, we had a short video recording of our dancing at the parade square. Then it was official PT time.

Well, to be honest, today's PT session mood was quite bad, and some people got really tired and frustrated and pissed... And I hope everyone's feeling ok. Well I wonder what kind of sprains I might get tomorrow haha. Well, I just suppose we need to understand more of what we want our PT session to be like. I think its also cause we havent had PT in a while, and everyone started off with the wrong mentality. Maybe I guess. Come on councilors! Let's make our next PT session a better one :) And hopefully next time we will have a full attendance. Everyone is like so busy sia..

If you ask me about my personal view, I feel that PT shouldnt be meant to kill people, but rather just do to maintain our fitness yah? Like running a slow jog builds up your blood circulation and works those muscles, and if you do that everyday, I bet you'll definitely become fitter than if you just stone at home in front of the computer or table doing homework all day. And if most people agree to it, then we can try to push ourselves to our limits. Well maybe not every PT session, but once in a while why not try to push ourselves harder a bit. And PT aso develops discipline among ourselves. Ok not as in always getting shouted at and then listening to orders as in the army, but a self-discipline. Like for example lets say your goal for PT would be to run 2.4km, then do pushups, and maybe some situps and leg exercises. Then implementing and completing all of these tasks that you have set for yourself will show that you have discipline for yourself. The same can be used for studies, setting for yourself the standard of how you want to do your studies and homework. Regardless of how "wonderful and beneficial" I make PT sound, I mean, its still up to every individual's fitness as well.

And I just wish to say that if it really comes to a stage that any of you feel that you cannot take it anymore, just tell us, its ok. I believe none of us will force anyone to carry on, unless we are really feeling that you're not pushing your limit yet. And if it really comes to a point that people suddenly faint, we will be there for you. But of course that would be the last senario we want to see happen haha. Welfare is very important in PT as well...

And maybe next time round, some simple things we can do is to remember to bring towels and water bottles along haha...Today was a really hot day and apparently most of us forgot to bring our bottles with us hm... Hot + Frustrated=Bad Combo

Well, I suppose I said my view abt today. And a lot of other stuff too haha... Good job today everyone! We managed to endure through PT today. Everyone get enough rest yah? Nowadays so many people falling sick sia... Wonder why. Hope you all get well soon :)

Cya all at school then. Tomorrow I got RI Prefect Investiture! Havent worn a blazer in ages haha..

21st Feb Cleo's Bday! Basic Theory Driving Test Pass

2006-02-21T21:00:00.000-08:00

Yo everybody, yeah as I've mentioned, here's quite a fast update haha.

Well, Monday was quite a simple day. My class had bio SPA then PE, and after that I settled some logistics stuff such as cutting blindfolds... I feel quite guilty that I missed the "elections comm" meeting in order to do my O2 logist... But lucky Siti and the others understand my difficulties. Thank you all!! I promise I'll make up for it.

Today, its Cleo's birthday! Haha operation " B Day Master Plan" is finally completed. Well in order to thank Cleo for teaching me how to fold origami roses, I made some roses and cranes for her haha. Well since I was preparing her birthday gift already, I thought that it was appropriate for me to prepare a gift to thank her at the same time, so hey I went and did it. I hope you liked the presents haha. But apparently guys like me still have some lacking in skill at origami.. But nevertheless its the thought that counts I guess. :P I may have said it quite a lot of times already, but thanks Cleo! Maybe you could still teach me more origami...when we can spare the time haha. I bet school work is killing everyone. Hm...

And today, after settling some logistics stuff after school, I went for my Basic Theory Test at the driving centre. And I passed! Ok apparently the test is quite easy after you have gone for the practice session a few times. So now what I need to do next is to get my provisional license and go start my practical lessons! Hehe... One step closer my final goal.

Hm...tomorrow is gonna be Games Trial 2 for councilors. And Merrick has PT planned for us! Gonna be another long day tomorrow...

Cya all tmr everyone :)

12th-17th Feb

2006-02-17T15:33:00.000-08:00

Yo everybody, updating my blog again. If you're wondering where I am, I'm currently in the council room haha. Phew, can finally take a break from today's relatively hectic day.

Oh yeah, you guessed it, "Zhiming is gonna mention day by day what happened again." But hey, everyday is a different day yeah? So it doesnt harm anyone to mention it haha.

On Monday, Solico had started organising their CT competitions. And me and Aik Tiong took a trip to some shops at Serangoon Interchange to buy stuff for the class girls the next day haha. Didnt really spend that much though. Well its the thought that counts ya? And we were in time to watch the last game activity of the CT competition: Stuffing Marshmallows!! Oh yeah it can get quite disgusting when you see people with mouths stuffed with lots of melting marshmallows.... And there was white drool everywhere...ew... But anyways, I myself gave a try, and I had a personal record of 28 in my mouth! And you really cant talk after having that many marshmallows in your mouth haha. But we all had fun anyway.

Tuesday was Valentine Day!!! Man, I got bombarded by chocolates and sweets and presents the moment I went to school haha. Now I know that next time round I should bring a bag to store stuff haha. But hey, its my first significant Valentine Day!Apparently 10 years in all-boys school before JC life doesnt teach you much about Valentine Day hm... But yeah, the atmosphere today was so nice haha... I really like all those presents I recieved. Thanks Everyone!

On Wednesday, council had to settle some stuff such as kayaking, council elections, The One protocol, and O2. And we took a video of our mass dance for NYAA.

On Thursday, The One Finals!!! What an event, turned out to be a hell of a rocking time for everyone. I believe everyone who went had an enjoyable experience. And CCACO has done a great job. THUMBS UP from me!! And of course, I believe everyone else in the 28th Student Council was glad to help out the event as well haha. THUMBS UP for everyone!! And the audience was also so high the moment the event started, must thank them all for their support as well.

Well, Friday is finally a day that I can get to go home early. Today I'm gonna go get my hair cut hm...And for the weekend I guess its back to rushing homework. Got quite a lot of stuff next week... Tutorials, Bio SPA, GP presentation etc. And Basic Theory Driving Test on next tuesday! I must pass it! And then its off to practical lessons for driving hehe...

Hm..next Thursday is RI Investiture as well, looks like I'm got a chance to visit my secondary school on official business haha. I wonder if I'm meet any of my friends there haha. And I think I'll definitely meet some of my teachers again.Oh well, lets see how it goes when it comes. Brings back memories already haha. Though to tell you honestly I might have forgotten some people already haha. Sorry if I did!

Well, I'm ending my post here. Will update again soon! :)

5th Feb -11th Feb Valentine Day

2006-02-11T21:29:00.000-08:00

Hm...another weekly update. Oh well, time to carry on.

For this week, I would say its the "Valentine Day" craze sia haha.

Well Games Trial last week was ok, and Games committee has updated me on new logistics already. Back to work allocating and doing logistics again haha.

Well this week for me was quite simple actually.

On Sunday, I was trying hard to do research on my GP presentation... Which seems quite difficult to do hm...

On Monday, I returned the PE department their logistics.

On Tuesday, I handed in the O2 Logistics Work Schedule.

On Wednesday, I found Mr Bao to ask about the borrowing of the white boards behind the hall...apparently its quite simple to get permission haha.

And I learnt how to fold Roses!!! Even though they dont look so nice :P Well maybe cause I dont have a strong foundation at folding things...Or its just a guy thing haha. Thank you Shifu (Master) Cleo for teaching me!! :) She's my amazing teacher who learnt it from the online website in less than a day! Some of the more complicated instructions are difficult to visualise if you ask me... Everyone feel free to try it out too! Its here: http://www.bloom4ever.com/howto/howto01.htm

And Aesthetico moved the Student Council Location Banner. And today I handed in Budget Proposal for Games Logistics for O2.

On Thursday, nothing much other than how I stayed back in school to do hwk until around 5.30pm when Exco had their meeting in the council room, then those of us staying in the room decided to go home haha.

On Friday, Aesthetico stayed back to settle Friendship Week's booth stuff. Haha I'm looking forward to next week. Next week is gonna be so interesting.

And since its the week approaching Valentine Day, people at school have set up booths that sell from glass roses to customised teddy bears to accessories and stuff like that. And my class started the "Angel and Mortal" game. I wonder what I should get for my Mortal hm... Oh well I shall go and do some scouting and decide then.

Pictures

One of the roses that Cleo folded, does it just look so pretty? I wonder how long it'll take for me to get to that level haha... Practice makes perfect!!

One of the glass roses I bought from the booths at school for my Mom :)

Its the thought that counts.

The Roses that Solico is selling for Valentine Day :)

My "Mini Garden" at home haha...Yeah the better looking ones in the white box, the big blue one and the red one in front by itself "in the limelight" were done by Cleo. They're my reference at home haha. What else but to use other than a good role model? And as the days pass I think the garden will grow bigger bah hehe. More practice!

Everyone enjoy your weekend and Friendship week next week! Cya all :)

26th Jan - 4th Feb Updates

2006-02-04T22:30:00.000-08:00

Bleah yet again another late update. Oh well I better update something before my blog collects too much dust.

Continuing from my previous post, here's an idea of what significant events passed so far for me...

26th Jan: Audition for The One held by CCACO

27th Jan: Cross Country!!!

28th Jan: Stayed at home to celebrate New Year Eve

29th Jan- 31st Jan: CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

1st Feb: My bro's bday! Same as Wei Jun's too

2nd Feb: The One Preliminary Rounds

Passed My Basic Theory Trial Test for driving!

3rd Feb: Completed overall logistics for Games Trial (What a relief haha.)

4th Feb: O2 Games Trial

Now time to elaborate more...

Ok well on 26th Jan me and my other classmates worked a bit on our "Total Defence in Maths" poster, and after that I ended up being chased away from helping out in "The One" cause I wasnt selected to be involved haha. Turned out to be a good idea after all I guess.. I mean I should give myself more time at home to do stuff other than council...

For 27th Jan, after our " Cross Country + CNY Celebration", I went to J8 to meet up with my secondary school classmates. And I believe I'll never try to walk from MacRitchie Reservoir to J8 again...lol We then watched "Fearless" at J8 after we ate our lunch. And I met quite a few friends who I havent met in ages haha. Feels nice when you meet old friends ya? After watching our movie, we went to do a bit of window shopping at PS for clothes and then proceeded to Paradiz Centre to try to play LAN. And well, we werent that successful at finding a suitable LAN shop cause they were all fully occupied... Sad for us. We waited at the LAN shop for so long that we got sianz and all decided to just go and eat chicken rice at the stall nearby, and after that I left for steamboat at Marina South with some of the councilors. Steamboat is fun, especially when you have the company. I mean, you dont really need to eat your money's worth as long as you're happy haha.

On 28th Jan, well its Chinese New Year Eve so basically its a practice to just stay at home to celebrate reunion dinner haha.There was quite a feast at home :) And yes, with Chinese New Year comes Mahjong Marathons...lol

On 29th and 30th Jan, it was basically visiting relative's houses, or having relatives come over to my home to celebrate Chinese New Year haha.

On 31st Jan, it was a bit special cause councilors had decided to organise a "outing" to visit each other's houses haha. On that day, I visited 6 houses. Here's the sequence:

Cunzheng

Ms Chiew

Vanessa

Lionel

Choy

Huimin

And yeah, it was also like a "mass picture taking" day also haha. Well, we had quite a lot of fun cause we celebrated Wei Jun's Bday at Vanessa's house, and at then we all watched "Memoirs of a Geisha" at Huimin's house. Not a bad movie afterall...

Then on 1st Feb, at school everyone celebrated Wei Jun's bday, and I believe she went home with like so many gifts...haha And I lost my temper again haiz... Maybe its cause of a mix of many factors... Sometimes I wonder if I am still the old person I used to be.

Then on the 2nd and 3rd Feb, I was kind of stressed out by logistics matters haha... As well as other matters.. Well, there were problems here and there, but regardless of the process, I was glad that we managed to fulfil our objective. Thanks logist comm and everyone who helped out!!

Today, we had MST in the morning which was organised by the PE department. Strangely, this talk was held just at the right moment after I got stressed abt personal stuff for the past 2 days. So the MST session today sort of like helped me to convince myself again on what are my goals in life, and that I must put in all the effort I can before I can actually achieve them. It was quite enlightening for me. Well, after Games Trial today, there was a lot of good feedback which helped improve the games. And logist comm will have to wait for Games comm to be done again before we update our logistics haha. Oh well, I have to return the PE logistics on Monday. I must remind myself hm..

Setting Goals is one thing,

Putting In Effort to Achieve them is even harder.

Priorities!

Determination!

Discipline!

The 3 things I need to remind myself everyday...

O1 Skit Last Scene + Griffin Cup

2006-01-25T06:03:00.000-08:00

Hm, today was a relatively less busy day, cause I had only PE, bio lecture, then GP lesson. But even though I brought one bag to school today, its still quite fat cause I brought chem notes to study haha. Today, was the final scene of the O1 skit! And 2 trailer scenes for upcoming O2 haha. Well.. I wonder if people will still remember Magneto haha. Maybe the evil laughter.... Mua hahahaha.... Well anyways the skit turned out quite well. Still as interesting as ever :) And thanks skitters for accomodating me even though I didnt went for the past 2 rehearsals... And after the skit, we did our Superstar dance and then we all left to help start the Griffin Cup.

If you didnt know, the Griffin Cup is a dodgeball competition held among Griffin house members. And yeah although things were quite chaotic at the start cause we were unsure how how to implement the rules and stuff properly, we managed to adapt to the situation and made sure that everyone who went had their own share of fun. Looks like this will spur on the other houses to start organising their own form of events haha. Well visibility is quite important after all... Let's go Pegasus!

And I booked a session for my theory trial test on driving. Its on the 1st Feb 6.55pm. I hope it won't cause me to miss out on anything important...hm... If you're thinking what I'm thinking. Well that's abt it for today.

Man, I havent been maintaining my exercising at home...gotta come out with a new schedule again hm..

Pictures

Endurance! The way to go!!! Rawr!!!!

Stay tuned for updates.

24th Jan - THE PROMISE!!!!

2006-01-24T18:05:00.000-08:00

Well today at school, it seems that I have finally realised what it is that I'm currently lacking. With self-motivation and determination, comes DISCIPLINE. No time to waste, I must catch up on my studies now!!! And I have finally applied for driving lessons today.... They are on my tuesdays, thursdays and sundays. Time to get working!! I will show everyone what I'm made of!!!! No more feeling sad, regretful and stressed over not completing hwk....and personal matters.

Today is a special day....I SWEAR! That now I will change my attitude... That I will not let myself down. And the others I care for....

"God does not help those who do not help themselves."

STUDY!!!!!

23rd Jan - Personal Reflections - Priorities

2006-01-23T22:08:00.000-08:00

Yo, today at school was ok haha. Lessons were ok, mugged chemistry during my long break in between, felt satisfied that I did some progress today :) But I still have a long way to go though. And Thanks 05S10A!!! I really like the birthday card you all made for me!! :) And so that others can appreciate it as well, I have uploaded pictures of it! Haha. I feel so lucky. Well today at PE I failed my pullups and standing board jump station haiz... Looks like back to training my 2 weakest stations again... Need more fitness!!!

Hm....somehow I dunno why, but I seemed to get quite stressed at council work today.... Today we had a short Aesthetico meeting, and directly after that O2 Ad Hoc meeting no. 2... And in between, I was supposed to have a skit rehearsal but I missed it anyways. Well, I guess at today's Aesthetico meeting, I was reminded of something that has been bothering me ever since I realised last year, that my school life now revolves around council. The word that describes it all is PRIORITIES. Not about what task to do first, and do next, but rather what are my current prioritised goals that I wish to achieve. Like of course, it is obvious that studies is the BIGGEST priority of them all, but I seem to always get so involved in council that I tend to find myself losing my direction all over again. Hey, who said it's easy to balance studies and council. I still have this difficulty ever since last year. Then again, I feel that I am letting down council down if I keep telling them that I treat studies more important than their friendship, which is a message I dont want to convey.

And cause I know that my current studies cannot make it, I have opted out from being in the Dinner and Dance Ad Hoc, which will be taken up by the O2 Ad Hoc. I think it's better that I set for myself more time for study... I know that rather than be worrying, I should conjure up my determination and start making things happen. Man, I'm reaching a point in my life that I find it hard to focus fully on my studies. I think I really need some way or method to start motivating myself to concentrate on studies. Without self-motivation, how can one do anything wholeheartedly?

And I'm sorry for being fierce towards any of the councilors today especially those close to me... I guess I become like that when I think of serious things, especially regarding myself... I have also sometimes wondered if some of us have become too "bonded" to council that we are doing too much bonding, and neglecting things like studies and family. Like yeah, who wouldn't want to always hang out with your friends who went through thick and thin with you? And this makes it even harder to convince yourself to draw the line to stop.

So far, I am trying my best to balance these 3 categories..

Studies
Council

Fitness

And I have mentioned to some people that I also intend to learn driving this year, which means even lesser time for my studies and council. Yet another factor that needs balancing...

I really need to do some planning, and I really mean serious planning. Which means back to serious thinking mode again...Well I think I should relax for now and think about it calmly... And yes, all of this personal reflections and stuff is making me neglect my studies again.... ARGH!!!

I dunno lah....I think I'll take some time to think about it. I might be making a breakthrough in myself. I hope. Everything just seems so vague....I still dunno what it is that I'm trying to look for. I think I need someone to talk to... Perhaps my brother when he's free... Argh can feel some slight depression coming to my head... Think I should try to relax for now...

And I think it sounds weird that I will say this after all that I have just said, but dont worry about me everyone. Well if I need help I'll ask you all for help. But personally, I would prefer that I can solve this personal problem of mine myself, then it truly becomes my own accomplishment. I remember I once said before, "To see if I am a weakling, or a winner in my own right". Oh damn. This entry is so similar to the one I posted last time when I had a "sudden realisation of reality". It appears that I havent really changed a bit at all?

Damn it, damn it, damn it. All of this is getting irritating. When can I finally set myself in the correct mode? I'll have to figure it out myself bah.

Oh well, haiz. Cya all at school bah. Enough of ranting and ranting...

Pictures

The nice birthday card given to me by my beloved class!

Read the cover, then the contents inside properly to get the full picture haha.

So many encouraging comments! Thank you all!

And I wish that all your wishes will come true as well :)

Stay tuned for updates! Hm...feeling a bit more relaxed now.

21st Jan! Birthday + Newspaper Collection

2006-01-21T10:41:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone! Wohoo! What a great day today was! Thank you everyone for celebrating my birthday! :) Even just a simple "Happy Birthday" greeting means a lot to me haha. At the start, I wasn't really that enthusiastic about my birthday, cause like hey, I figured my birthday was just as normal as any other day. Well at least I spent my last few birthdays like that haha ever since I grown up to become a teenager. But hey! It feels good when people say happy birthday to you. I would say that it's a feeling of being appreciated by others. And that makes your birthday significant. :) The moment I woke up and swiched on my handphone, I discovered that I had recieved so many "Happy Birthday" messages, and that kind of kicked off my day with a good start haha :)

During today, it was also NYJC's newspaper collection at Toa Payoh and Serangoon. Somehow or another, my class was assigned to the area around Vanessa's house. What a coincidence haha. Well, it made life for us easier as well cause we had a place to put our bags as well as have refreshments during our break. And we even had a trolley, a very convenient tool for newspaper collection I must say.

Well, today's newspaper collection went quite ok other than one thing which had room for improvement which was the waiting duration for the truck to come. A lot of groups had to wait for hours before the truck went to their collection point to load the newspapers and stuff. For my class, we had called the truck at 11.30am but ended up waiting until 2.00+pm. Well it brought up a lot of complaining and stuff like that. Well, in between my class resorted to playing filler games, and they also put the time to use by celebrating the birthdays of people in our class who are born in January. Yeah, that includes Vanessa and me. And the cake was personalised and had our names on it! That was a nice thing to see.. :) Check out the picture of the cake below.

After the celebration, the truck came eventually, and even though it was full with newspapers and stuff from other checkpoints, our class still managed to load everything onto the truck. :) And we had some unexpected extra help as well, cause Huimin and Wei Jun came to join us. Well, some councilors had decided to go out for lunch together, and Huimin and Wei Jun figured that rather than go to J8 and wait, they might as well meet up with me and Vanessa and help us out first, then we leave together. Thank you you two! :) And great job 05S10A!!! I believe our class showed a lot of team work and cooperation today. Everyone had fun right? Ok labour work such as moving the newspapers may have been difficult, but I believe we enjoyed each other's company today :) It was a good experience for everyone right?

After finally finishing the collection, me, Vanessa, Huimin and Wei Jun then rushed to J8 for our appointed lunch. Well cause of the delay we only reached J8 at around 3.00+pm and our arrangment was supposed to be 2pm haha. Well we met up with Bee Fong at J8 as well, and Cunzheng joined soon after cause he had went home to wash up and change clothes first cause he had to look nice for the outing with the Dragon House OGLs later on. We then decided to have our lunch at Pastamania, where our class girls were also having lunch together. At Pastamania, the councilors sang a birthday song for me, and they gave me a cake which was bought from "Sweet Secrets". Opps, I forgot to take a picture of it :P Maybe I should ask Bee Fong to get another one haha...next time bah. Well after lunch, the group of us met up with Swee Wei and Jinfa who were delayed cause of the same "late truck" problems haha. And yeah, after walking around J8 a bit we then all returned home. And I officially bought my first drink of wine today haha.

In the evening, I had a simple dinner at the Serangoon Garden Country club with my family, and now I'm at home now blogging and stuff like that.

Phew, what a day, what a day. Birthdays are great! Haha. Thank you all once again everyone! Without you all I never would have such a great day today :) Friends are the best! Cya all everyone! You all are the bestest!

Pictures

Some of the cute toys you get to see in the council room....

Turtle+Pig+Beaver Combo!!

My new Billabong pencil case! A present from the councilors... :)

Thank you all! I like it a lot!

Nice birthday cake eh? Plus its personalised!

Yeah, me and Vanessa taking a pic together

If you're wondering, there's only 1 candle cause the coating on the cake is quite thick haha

Another picture, this time its us with our birthday cake slices.

See our names on them? Haha

05S10A Girls

NYJC Newspaper Collection 21-1-2006!!

Stay tuned for updates :)

12 Day Updates

2006-01-20T21:58:00.000-08:00

OK OK....Finally another update. Haha. Man things have really been busy nowadays. Back to the hectic life of school and council.... Anyways, I think I might as well list what I have been doing for the past 12 days haha... Grr I really need to update my blog more often. Wonder how I remember events? I check my sms lol.

Ok lets see.

On 9th Jan, it was our first day back to school and we had to help line up the OGs in the morning....And everyone got their updates about homework haha. Other than that, nothing much bah

On 10th Jan, I prepared my script for Pegasus Movie Night which was on 13th Jan Friday

On 11th Jan, it was CCA Bazaar! Ok the CCA Bazaar went through, but it appears that the 28th Council still has room for improvement. Another hard lesson learnt, as well as a reminder of our past lessons. Talk is cheap, Action is what matters.

On 12th Jan, we had our first O2 Ad Hoc meeting! Yeah let's go O2!!! Well preparations have began... so lets all work hard together everyone!

On 13th Jan, it was finally our Pegasus Movie Night. Yeah I believe everyone who went for the movie enjoyed the experience. Although some people can actually tend to over react when watching horror movies. Hey man, people scaring people is more scary then the movie scaring people haha.

On 14th Jan, I basically stayed at home other than going out to Kovan in the afternoon to buy stuff. And its my eldest bro's day! So we had a sumptuous dinner at Seoul Garden to celebrate the occasion.

On 15th Jan, it was Vanessa's bday, and so a group of us surprised her in front of her house in the morning haha. And after that we went out for lunch and others joined us for shopping. Those of us who wanted to study for tests went home earlier in the afternoon though haha.

On 16th Jan, most of the O2 Ad Hoc committees had their meetings after school to brief about stuff. I'm starting to like my committee already haha :) Well I really hope things will be under control when my comm gets more busy haha.

On 17th Jan, there was Chem and Maths test....Haiz I still have a lot of catching up to do for my studies. And after school, tuesday was supposed to be an official council off day, but in the end I saw Swee Wei, and the two of us decided to help out Welco which was trying to clear lockers. And I must say, those locks we use at school are more heavy duty then I first thought they were. Yeah, learnt it the practical way.

On 18th Jan, we had O1 evaluation and O2 briefing again. For my committee, we were basically still free and so we helped Creative comm to tidy up and sort out the O Packs cause some had gotten wet from air con water in the SL. And yes the SL is infested by millipedes...So it was quite an experience for the girls. Anyways we'll have to clean up the O Packs eventually. Just waiting for Creative comm to set a date for everyone.

On 19th Jan, well I finally got to go home early by 4! What a long time that has ever happened...

And today! Today is quite a fulfilling day for me cause I went running in the morning, got some exercise. But more importantly, the councilors celebrated my birthday for me haha. Thank you all for making my day special! Oh well tomorrow's the actual day, and I'll be doing newspaper collection hm.. Well, a birthday isnt that a big deal after all when you think about it. It can be just as normal as any other day, and it can also be special, depending on how you and others look at it haha. And I like the present! My first Billabong item, a Billabong pencil box :) Well I always wondered why people used so big pencil boxes in the first place, but since its a gift I just thought that I should use it haha. And today was Bio test hm... Hope I do ok for it bleah. After school, I stayed back a while to settle my CCA records and stuff, and ended up going to the gym for some exercise again with Cunzheng and Jinfa. And now I'm at home again.

Oh well, I'm looking forward to tomorrow... Finally turning 18! And soon I'll start to learn driving....I hope I can find a suitable time slot somehow. Less time available for school work and council bah.

I'll post some pictures soon haha....So keep a look out for my blog tomorrow! Cya around everyone.

New Year + Orientation 1 Period

2006-01-08T03:50:00.000-08:00

Finally an update! Man a lot of events have passed since I last updated. Well its almost impossible to list them all, unless you all want another REALLY long post haha. Lets see what happened so far...

Skit Rehearsal 27-28th
Packing of Orientation Packs
OGL Refresher course
Completed OGL flags
Hang Project X Backdrop
Celebrated New Year
Completed Emcee schedule and script for O1
Completed ORIENTATION ONE!!!!

and a lot of other stuff... haha

Well, I guess I'll just mention about O1 since the memory is still fresh in my head.

For O1, I played many different roles from emcee and parade commander on the 1st day, to games conductor for all days, and skitter on the 2nd and last day. Orientation 1 was a blast if you asked me :)

On the first day, Vanessa and I were emcee for the day. Everything went quite well, and the J1s were quite cooperative. And it was my first job being emcee, so its a new learning experience for me haha. As for parade commander, its quite an ok task cause I did it before during secondary school.And I made sure not to shout too loud haha. During the 1st game, it was land games and I was in charge of ball bouncer. The game is quite repetitive, but the people had fun cause I was always there "inspecting" while they were trying all means to direct my attention away from them haha. My favourite line became "Must be honest, must have integrity".

On the 2nd day, I was more free cause I was not in charge of a games station, but then I patrolled the various games to see if they needed help anyways. I was helping assist Jinfa if he needed something to be done. And cause it was water games this time round, I believe the J1s had a lot more fun haha. The only trouble was clearing up at the end of the day...

The 3rd day! Games at Sentosa! The biggest project organised by the Games committee during O1. Phew, my game was the most chaotic of them all, cause its a modified type of war game. And it was on the beach. I was so lucky to have a siren cause without it, I have no idea how I could have handled the chaotic situation. And I could only do so with the support of my fellow Games conductors as well. You people rock! And on Sentosa, many things are unpredictable, so it is even more important to have someone who you can depend on for help. Thanks to the councilors who helped me out when I needed them! And I believe that my endurance level has increased by a bit... Even though things got stressful I didnt lose my temper, but I must admit I was very close to haha. And on the third day, there were regular shifts of raining, and it got quite irritating cause it affected our games. But nonetheless, we all managed to pull it off successfully.

On the last day, the highlight of the day is the disco night, and man were the J1s and OGLs crazy! They just all got so high that I was afraid that the hall would suddenly crumble down on everyone haha. As for the games on the day, my station needed some modifications yet again haha. But the J1s had fun anyways. Apparently getting flour on your face is very funny..hm...

Thank you all OGLs! We couldn't have done O1 without you. And I thank you all again OGL games conductors! And if any J1s are reading this, I hope that you all managed to have fun. Thank you all for participating in O1. And thank you councilors! For making my experience at O1 a great one. And I also thank the teachers for supporting us in this project. Thank you all everyone! Including anyone who I left out in one way or another haha.

Oh well, that's just a brief entry about O1.... Actually a lot more happened haha... Come and ask me about it! Now that O1 is over, its back to working hard at studies... And the next coming event is CCA Bazaar. Jia you everyone! Council Rocks!!

Malaysia Trip 24th-26th

2005-12-26T19:56:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone, I've just returned from Malacca! For those of you who didn't know, my family as well as my Grandma and cousin went to Malaysia for holiday on the 24th. This time's trip was quite a fruitful trip cause I managed to buy quite a number of new clothes, pants and stuff haha. Looks like its time for an image change for me I guess... Hm...

Anyways, I took quite some pictures of the apartment my family owns in Malacca, isnt it cosy? Haha. Well since we dont go there that often, everytime we arrive there, its a mass cleaning session to clear off all the months' worth of dust and dirt.. In fact, this is our most recent visit in 2 years, and well the place was very dirty, but we managed to clean things up properly anyway.

Well, I don't really have much to say about this trip other than shopping, shopping shopping haha. Well, I'm quite looking forward to wearing some of my new clothes the next time I go out :) As for entertainment, me and my bros had like a mass cards session all the way while we were on the long drive from J.B to Malacca, as well as the way back. Yeah, 3 people playing cards at the back of a car can be quite complicating, but hey, what else could we do to kill time anyway haha. And other than playing cards, we had our share of Risk as well. It seems that Risk is not as simple as I thought it was haha. Tactics, tactics and more tactics I must say. I must say, it really feels sad when you see your whole army guarding your territory get swept away in one go haha.

So well, after this short 3 day holiday, I guess its back to school work again. Yes, this means more council too haha. Full dress skit rehearsal is tomorrow! I hope it goes smoothly.

Cya all at school everyone!

Pictures

The main living room

The dining table

The kitchen

One of the bedrooms

The balcony view

The swimming pool

My cousin with his newly bought shades! Haha doesn't he look cool?

First Aid Course+ Games Modification+ Skit Stuff

2005-12-18T22:02:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone! Finally an update haha. Ok, I've finally uploaded some Aesthec dinner pics, mainly the group pics haha.

Well, on Thursday, we had skit rehearsal which went quite ok other than a major problem that a few of our main cast were missing cause they had gone for holiday. Anyways after the rehearsal, we went to help out with banner painting! Yes, yet again another banner haha. Well, every banner gives a different sense of satisfaction haha. And we put in quite a lot of creativity for this time's banner! We had a bit of graffiti style put into it haha. And we even used paint bombs! Which was quite a major operation cause everyone was afraid of being getting hit by the paint. Anyways in the end we used cardboard boxes as a shield to prevent the paint from spreading so it was kept under control.

On Friday, we had our first aid course which was taught by Serene, our 27th Student Councillor. Man, I went to school early in the morning to exercise but in the end got pang seh by most of the guys... Next time I'll remember to exercise by myself first.. haha. And we had a few issues with borrowing the security guard's keys to opening the side gate. Well I was reminded about the lesson of give and take. After the first aid course, game committee stayed back until quite late cause we had to modify the O1 games all over again after looking at the feedback we had gotten from OGL workshop. Well I seriously hope the games will be a success haha. The O1 games committee really put in a lot of effort into thinking and planning of the games. :)

As for the weekend, I finally had a short break from council. But somehow just being reminded of the mountain of homewoek that I havent complete just gets me all frustrated again... I wish I had planned my time better during the holidays. Holidays are ending soon and there's just so much stuff to do! I think I seriously need to seek help from my friends to help study and do homework together with me. And when my family went out for dinner on Saturday, I managed to buy some suitable gloves and a ski mask for my skit costume. And well, now I look like a terrorist haha... See it for yourself in the picture below. And my bros told me that I look like a high class robber haha... Maybe the freshmen from O1 will call me "Super terrorist" or something hm.... I have no idea. Well I still have to consult the rest and see if I'll really use the mask after all.

Tomorrow is CCA Bazaar briefing! I hope that it will go well tomorrow. And I plan to stay back in school to rush my homework... If I cant complete all of it then at least I must try my best! Must make full use of all the time that's left. And I need to discuss with my form teacher about my time management difficulties... I still cant seem to balance council and studies I guess. That's my resolution for next year! Which is approaching very soon...

Everyone, please give me the support I need, so that I can overcome this difficult stage. Support me, and I'll always be sure to do the same back as well. I believe I am that kind of person. Chiong ah! Cya all then.

Pictures

Aesthetico Dinner at Swensens at PS

Ok I'm taking the picture so I'm not inside haha..

Our group photo after the dinner.

Do not be mistaken, its just part of the Aesthetico tradition to pass down to your junior an alcoholic drink :)

The O1 Banner! Yeah, making the splatter design needed a bit of ingenuity.

Paint bombs can be quite dangerous... and messy.

The sun set we always see when we go home late from council...

Nowadays it doesnt feel right when we go home before it turns dark, can you imagine that feeling? Can't blame council though. I think its cause of time management.

Taking a break after working hard on games proposal...

My skit outfit! Ok it looks as if there's a terrorist in my house....

OGL workshop+ Aesthec Dinner

2005-12-14T06:49:00.000-08:00

Phew...OGl workshop for the past 2 days has been a very tiring event. Being a games conductor, there was like tons of logistics to do, but on the overall I had a great experience haha. It was another challenge for the 28th Student Council as we had to do a good job of organising people as well as getting them hyped up for O1. It was another learning experience for all of us. And looks like games committe has more work ahead of us haha. We recieved a lot of useful and valuable feedback from the workshop. And on the overall, OGL workshop was a success!

Today, Aesthetico had our dinner with our seniors at Swensens at PS!! We had a really great time haha.

As for tomorrow, there's skit for rehearsal for O1 haha.

Hm, I think its just because I'm too tired that is making my posts damn short. I am just so exhausted now.

Stay tuned for me to upload the pictures I took!

Resolution!

2005-12-08T22:24:00.000-08:00

Priorities in life.... Something I recently started to think about. People can strive to make many changes in their lives, and it seems that its time that I realised and planned for mine as well. No more of just endless following and going with the flow to see what happens, but rather to think of your final destination and then work towards it. Do I have the potential to achieve my goals? I have never really thought about that. Self-motivation and determination is what I need now.

The future is up to me and only me to control. Will I stay as I am, become worse, or change for the better? The result is up to me to decide.

At many times, I have felt that I have become too carefree. Being carefree is good that you can have less worries, but you also do not understand the seriousness and urgency of a situation. I am reminded of a sentence my teacher once told me, "God does not help those who do not help themselves". You have to work hard for whatever you strive for.I have to be more serious in what I do. I have to show to others that I truly have the potential to reach my goals. And I shall gain the respect that I have always wanted. In the past, I have felt this way, but changed back to my old self. This time, it shall be do or die.

JC so far has taught me a lot of new lessons, little bits and pieces which tell me more about my own character, capabilities and weaknesses. Council has also played a big part in it. Exploring things I never tried before, met and understood many different people's characters as well as their working styles, and also having worries that I have never experienced before. Stress has also become a greater factor now, and then again I hope that it acts as a motivation and challenge for me to push my limits. How can one grow if he or she forever doesnt experience any hardship before at all?

Tomorrow will be a new start, and things will show for themself. Whether I am a weakling or a winner in my own right.

O1 Games Meeting + O1 Skit + Home Visit

2005-12-05T23:54:00.000-08:00

Phew, today was another busy day haha. I went to school at 7.00am cause we had 01 games meeting at 8.00am and me and some other councillors wanted to meet up early in order to exercise. In the end, it was raining so everyone reached school late haha. Except for a few of us.

The first person I saw was Choy and he was running around the school block to act as his morning exercise. I was still having headaches in the morning so I stayed in the SC room and waited for the rest to reach. Eventually Choy and Jinfa came to join me, then we went to meet up with the rest of the people who were waiting at the grandstand. In the end, the girls went running on the track even though it was still drizzling. I must give them credit for their determination haha. As least they werent afraid of falling sick. And man, I found out today that having headaches can be quite irritating grr...

Well the guys tried to go to the gym in order to pump some iron, but we found out that the gym was still locked so we had no choice but to do other stuff. Cun Zheng, Swee Wei and I grabbed a soccer ball and went back to the track again and played a bit of passing amongst ourselves, and then when the girls were ready we went back to the SC room. One unfortunate thing was that Cun Zheng sprained his wrist while we were playing soccer, and cause it was an old injury as well, he was in quite a lot of pain. But he's ok now anyways after we used cold water and ice packs to quell the pain. Luckily there wasnt any bone fracture or serious stuff like that.

Anyways, we started our games meeting which lasted until around afternoon, and those involved with our games meeting had no choice but to miss dance practice today haha. Even though I wanted to go and have some revision... But O1 games comes as a priority, since our games trial for councillors is this week haha. Oh well, we will make up for our dancing tmr I guess.

In the afternoon, quite a big group of councillors went to J8 for lunch, and then after lunch those of us involved in the O1 skit went back to school to read up and try our scripts. There's still quite a lot of changes to be done, cause each person has their own acting style, and I believe skits are very flexible, so a lot of ideas can be put in haha. After completing our "skit rehearsal" of the day, the group of us were troubled over where to go to have dinner, then in the end everyone decided to go hang out at my house then have dinner nearby Serangoon Gardens haha. Along the way we stopped by Coffee Bean and bought a few drinks there. And we saw Kai Jian with his Aunt! Haha what a coincidence.

For me, it was quite fun inviting everyone over to my house, and then talk about council work as well as other stuff haha. And today I suppose everyone got to know my brothers better by a bit too eh? I think it was also quite a funny experience for them too. Anyways we were so engrossed with discussing about stuff that in the end we just decided to order pizza for dinner. I mean like yeah, its my house so it feels comfortable, but hanging out with council friends in my house is yet another new experience haha. Next time you all must come again k? And hopefully next time its a bigger gang haha. Oh well, busy with council this week again.... Back to school again! Cya all there, as always haha.

Pictures

Everyone who went to my house today!

Looking forward to their next visit!

Stay tuned for my next update!

Kettling!

2005-12-03T21:14:00.000-08:00

Yeah, today we went kettling! Oh well today me, Cun Zheng, Swee Wei, Candice, Wei Jun, Bee Fong and Jinfa met up at East Point (Simei MRT) at 11.00am and had our lunch before we started our kettling at 12.00pm. Anyways, the 3 girls were stationed at East Point to do their kettling while the rest of the guys followed the Salvation Army van to our check point outside Tampines MRT.

When we finally reached and set up our station outside Tampines MRT, then came the routine of wearing the "nice" Salvation Army apron and ringing the bell haha. As for me, I was mostly in charge of giving out the free Starbucks coffee vouchers to people while the rest continued ringing the bells and entertaining donations. And as a habit, I always bow to people as a form of courtesy before stretching out my hand to pass them the voucher. So now, my back kind of hurts after giving out those hundreds of vouchers haha. Well being patient does come in handy when giving out flyers... And after all that ringing, I can still hear the ringing in my ears now sia... Ok maybe not so serious until that extent, but all that ringing has brainwashed me. I bet if I enter any Long John Silver, I'll start ringing the bell and say its a natural reaction haha. Well I guess you all should understand my point :)

Halfway through, Ping Qi joined us cause she found out that she was free at the last moment, and in the end cause Jinfa and Cun Zheng had other matters to attend to, only me, Swee Wei and Ping Qi were left at the kettling station before we changed to the next shift. The few of us had quite a few laughs, cause we were really bored and thought of many ideas of how to make kettling more interesting... Well any people who are going for kettling soon can approach us for ideas to reduce boredom haha.

Well, after our kettling shift from 12pm to 5pm ended, we all went back home cause everyone had their own activites already. At the end of the day, it seemed the girls side had a better response cause they had met a special donator who donated $50 dollars! Well if you ask me, I bet its cause the person only had 1 $50 note and the rest were in hundreds haha. And the donator was a female? Haha I thought it would have been a guy. Well in the end kettling isnt about who got more donations of anything. Its about helping others in need.

Finally, I wish to thank Jinfa, Bee Fong and Ping Qi for joining us today for kettling.We appreciated it! The more company the better :) I believe you all have a good time as well? Oh well, cya all at school!

Pictures

Our kettling station and me wearing the nice apron!

Haha so coincidentally there was no crowd behind me...

Do you feel like donating? Haha.

The Starbucks voucher which I gave out.

Wait for me to get a clearer picture!

Stay tuned for updates!

Farewell Completed!!!

2005-12-02T04:12:00.000-08:00

Phew! I finally managed to take a break today. Man, council has been REALLY exhausting, and I think that all those days of not getting enough sleep have finally piled up and resulted in me having a blocked nose and a bad sore throat. Well, all those strepsils, pills and herbal tea have helped me feel better now.

During this Monday, there was the rehearsal for Farewell for the backstage people. Creative had a meeting at 9, but I felt I needed some exercise and so I went to school at around 7.00+am and started a bit of exercise. Did 5 rounds, some pull ups, and some sit ups as well. Well I still have a long way to go if I want to get silver for NAPFA next year. The rehearsal went quite well, and Creative was also in charge of hanging the backdrop today. After hanging it, many people felt that it seemed to look quite small, so we brainstormed and figure that we could try putting a 2nd banner behind it to make it look bigger, something like an extended border. Luckily Winnie had already bought a black banner which was intended for O1 haha. And at night I helped Liyana print the School logo cause we needed it for Mrs Ho's scrapbook. I couldnt find it online, so I took a picture of it on the school flag haha, then printed it at home.

On Tuesday, it was our last full dress rehearsal before the actual thing. But of course the uniform group skitters didnt need to bring their uniforms cause we needed it the next day. Creative and some other councillors sort of went into a mad rush because we needed to solve the banner problem by today, and so everyone went into hyper drive to sew the banners so that we could put the poles through. At the starting we didnt have a long pole and so we tied four poles together to insert through the top of the black banner, but the middle of the pole sagged when we hanged the banner up. And so we had no choice but to scrap the idea of putting the black banner behindto "extend" the length of the Farewell banner. In the end, we figured our best alternative was to lower the Farewell banner more. On the same day, the whole council worked together to help out with the photo gallery cause Creative committe had faced problems with completing it. Thanks councillors for helping us out! I really appreciated that. At night, I believe quite a few people got spammed with sms from NYJC informing them about farewell the next day haha.

On Wednesday morning, I went to school at around 9.00am in order to check out if there was anything that my committe might have left out, and we really forgot something. The 2nd signboard meant for decorating Mrs Ho's trishaw was unfinished, so we still had some work to do. We sawed the 2nd signboard because we felt it was too long, and with a bit of painted, it was sort of completed. All that was left was for Kaijian to decorate the trishaw when it reached school. Other than that, Mrs Ho's farewell today was quite a success, cause we had met our primary objective which was to allow her to have a good time. :) One problem we met though was that there was a overestimation of how many people would attend that day. Catering was calculated for 2000 people, but in the end only around 600-700 people came. Council had a really hard time trying to clear up all that food... And one problem everyone raised was about ushering, ushering and more ushering haha. Well, personally, I feel that since there's no way to rehearse ushering, its quite a difficult job to do. Somehow, it puzzled me why during our briefing the only thing we talked about was mainly about ushering. And also, councillors still have a lot to learn about controlling crowds I guess. O1 is coming up, so it is even more important for us to understand how to crowd control. And I feel that Simin adapted quite well to the backstage situation. Thumbs up for you! As a backstage crew, I felt quite secure having her in charge. Well you really have to work with people in order to understand how they lead under pressure. So even though I missed out on watching the performance from the hall, being backstage crew wasnt so bad after all. Even though logistics and stuff are very tedious things to do.

On Thursday, O1 games committee as well as our honournary members had a meeting at 8.00am in order to discuss on Game Trials next week.Then after that, council had to clear up the chairs and decorations in the hall, and rearraange the canteen, so it was mostly labour work again haha. In the evening, I went out to watch Chicken Little at PS cause Candice was watching it with her family, and she asked if any councillors wanted to go. And so around 13 of us went together to watch the movie haha. And a lot of councillors seem to be falling sick recently. I think we hang out with each other so much that we all get the same sickness...haha Or maybe its just cause we all dont get enough sleep. Oh well, time of everyone to focus on O1 preparations. Yet another long council term ahead...haha

Pictures

The school logo :)

Counci helping out to do the photo gallery

Yes, photo galleries are labour intensive.

And dont misunderstand... what Jonathan's holding is part of what I cut out from the letter "n"

Our completed photo gallery!!

Police and Army working together for the safety of our Council Room...haha

Mrs Ho's present from the teachers who went to Taiwan

The big size Chicken Little we saw at the cinema counter at PS.

Stay Tuned for updates!

Farewell + Council Retreat!!!!

2005-11-26T21:49:00.000-08:00

Wah haha! I'm finally back everyone! Phew these past 6 days have really been busy. Oh well enough of the introductions, lets get on to what happened!

On Monday, Creative meeting was at 7.00am. On the same day, there was a Farewell meeting at 11.00am to brief us about the rehearsal which we were having on the same day. And the banner painting was a huge success! Oh well we faced some difficulty in opening this can of red paint that was put in the storage for a really long time, but other than that things went quite smoothly. Even the pink colour which we mixed using the red paint plus white paint looked really nice on the banner. And we managed to finish the whole banner within one day! And one different thing we did today was to have a mass Macdonald session while we were having meeting haha. Everyone was just so busy with lots of stuff.

As for our rehearsal, it was quite standard for us to follow the protocol of the day, and we each clarified some problems which we spotted as well as work on our "segments" and their procedures. And this time round, I didnt go out to have dinner with the councillors cause I had to go home early to pack up and prepare my stuff for council retreat which was on the next day. On the same night, I wanted to discuss with the other guys what stuff we needed to bring for council retreat, and waited since 10.00pm for anyone of them to come online. In the end they only came online at around near 12.00+ am, and by then I had already packed most of my bag and felt damn sleepy.

On Tuesday morning, our initial Aesthetico meeting was cancelled, but we had an Aesthetico lunch instead scheduled at 12.00pm at White Sands. It was quite a rainy morning, so quite a few people came late, and in the end our Aesthetico was Macdonalds again haha. Man, we eat Macdonalds like almost everyday... For me, I met up with Vanessa first and we took bus 81 at Serangoon MRT interchange all the way to White Sands. And then we first met Wei Jun there. The 3 of us then went to meet up with the Farewell Ad Hoc people which were already at the 2nd floor of the Macs there. At Macs, we had our lunch and waited for everyone to reach White Sands. The whole group of us hanged around White Sands until around 3.00+pm before everyone had gathered already, and the bus came and fetched us directly to the Aloha Loyang entrance.

There, we met the rest of the people there who had gone earlier to do stocktaking and stuff. We stayed at Bungalow 12 "Laughing Thrush". After spending time exploring the facilities in the bungalow, the few of us guys went into hyper mode and setted up the PS2 which Jinfa brought in a instant haha. But before any of us could proceed with our games and stuff, the teachers mentioned that we should select and organise the rooms which we were about to sleep in. After setting up our sleeping quarters, everyone started playing games like cards, mahjong and PS2 haha. Hey man, what else do you usually play at a chalet? Haha. After a while of games, we then had a session of "Reflections" with our respective committee teachers. Well, I believe it was really enlightening for all of us. For my committee, even though our head Candice was absent, she had written quite a detailed note for all of us, and Wei Jun read it out during the meeting. It was really interesting that it really felt that she was there with us at the meeting haha. And after the meeting we called her to send our last regards before she went to Australia for holiday. :) We missed you Candice!

After our reflections, everyone went back to games and stuff, the chalet is meant for us to relax after all. Eventually, dinner came, and it was a mixture of catering as well as bbq food. So everyone stopped their games and went to prepare and have dinner. The first casualty of the day was Choy, cause he burnt his fingers when the fire got too big when he was preparing the bbq. The rest of us all felt bad that he had gotten injured and so went to help out with the bbq in shifts. One group would do the bbq, and the other would eat first, then each group would switch roles later. Well, it was quite a fun dinner, despite our large intake of carbon in some of the foods haha.

Eventually in the evening, the councillors teachers had another activity for us. Each of us had to stand in a row outside the bungalow and then everyone would then become blindfolded. We were then lead to a different location where we had to do another 2nd activity. Our second activity was that while everyone was blindfolded, we had to pick up strings from 3 hula hoops which were on the floor, and then form an equilateral triangle. It was a quite interesting activity, and we learnt a lot of useful lessons such as how communication is important, and at times when people notice the blindspots of others, they should be more willing to express their views.

After that, each committee had to play the "Helium hoop" game, and again this game emphasised on how teamwork is important, as well as how at times, we should not blame others cause situations can occur whereby everyone can be responsible for what happened.

After our night activities, everyone went back to the chalet to carry on with our games. Some of the councillors went to learn roller blading, and it turned out to be quite a fun activity. Some of us also just went to take a walk around the chalet area and to the beach nearby just to discuss about anything. And some of us had stayed up till 3.30am just to watch soccer haha. As for me, I slept right after the match started cause I couldnt take it anymore haha. Well, some of the guys just decided to sleep in the living room cause we felt our rooms didnt have enough place for everyone to sleep in anyways.

Come the following Wednesday morning, after waking up and washing up, the first thing I did was to play X-Men Legends 2: Rise of the Apocalypse on the PS2 haha. It was quite interesting cause everyone in the living room was watching, and its quite fun when its 2 players haha. Spending time playing the game with your friends watching just seems so different from playing the game alone haha. After reaching around 10.00+ am, we had another council activity, which was to go to the beach and build sandcastles! Haha it may seem very childish at first, but wait till you see our pictures. This was an opportunity for us to spend quality time with each other, as well as to distress. Our task was to build a sandcastle anyway as we like, and after it was complete we had to give a brief introduction on what we had built. So check out the pictures at the end of my post! Haha.

After our sandcastle building session, the remaining time was left free for us to go outside to eat, or to stay in the chalet. And so, quite a few of us decided to go out to Tampines to have lunch as well as buy our Harry Potter movie tickets for the evening. After our lunch, the whole gang went to play pool, and we had quite a lot of fun. And we also realised how pro Jonathan's pool skills were haha. The guys were all thrashed until not a single one of us was left. After the pool session, we all went back to the chalet to meet up with the others who were going to go watch the movie togther with us. We then left from the chalet back to Tampines to watch our Harry Potter movie. It was good on the overall, but some scenes seemed quite weird to me. And supposedly some scenes were quite boring cause some of us were all falling asleep halfway through haha. After our movie, we met up with the remaining "K Box" group of councillors who were waiting for us to finish, and we all went back to the chalet together for a well earned rest. The weird thing was that I had difficulty sleeping in the guys room cause it was really really cold, and I couldnt stand it and ended up sleeping in the living room by myself haha. I only managed to sleep at 5.00am, after many rounds of sleeping and awaking cause of the cold.

On Thursday morning, I was woken up at 7.20am cause I had locked the sliding doors of the living room, and the others needed to enter in order to prepare breakfast haha. Anyways, most of us had our breakfast quickly and then left the chalet at around 8.00am. I reached home at around 9.30am, then had to wash and change up before going back to school again by 11.00am for Creative meeting. The few of us wore our new council shrit which was BRIGHT neon green haha. Everyone is gonna see it at Farewell. For lunch, we had nasi lemak. For the rest of the day, we went through the full dress rehearsals for the whole event, and at the end of the day had a lot of clarifications with what procedures went wrong with our rehearsal. Well, we have more rehearsals this coming week on Monday and Tuesday. Farewell is on Wednesday by the way haha. For dinner, the few of us went to the S11 at J8 and I realised that our shirts could be seen from a mile away haha. Its that outstanding. :P

On Friday, Creative committee had another meeting at 8.30am, and the council had to move chairs to the hall for Farewell at 11.00am and start our dance session at 1.30pm to learn our new 28th dance. For me, I had planned to go running in the morning with a few other councillors, but it was raining in the morning, and most of them had woken up late. So in the end me and Jeannette who had met earlier at around 7.00am+ had no choice but to go to the Council Room first and slack. Well, I taught Jeannette how to play "Big Two", and now we have an extra player at council haha. At 8.30am, I went to the SL to have my creative meeting, and it lasted until the afternoon when everyone had to go and carry chairs for logistics. And breakfast was Macs yet again. The moving of the chairs took quite a while, and so we went for lunch at the hawker centre opposite Zhong Hua Sec at 1.00am. Our dance session only started at around 2.30pm. The dance session was quite successful, cause most of us managed to learn the complete dance already haha. We were so enthusiastic that we also danced some of the other previous dances we knew after learning finish our new dance. Dancing was a really great exercise haha. I want to dance the 28th dance again! Haha. For dinner, we all went to Toa Payoh, and some of us visited Choy's brother's home haha. We all went home quite early this night at around 8.30pm+ haha.

Today, me, Cun Zheng, Wei Jun and Jinfa went to Jurong East at 10.00am cause some of us needed to visit Creative to fix our Zen Micros. Our trip there was quite fruitful, cause Wei Jun and I both manged to get our Zen Micros replaced with new ones haha. After visiting Creative, the 4 of us went to Orchard and on the way we met up with Swee Wei and Junyi. At Orchard road MRT, we met Liyana and Bee Fong there. And later on, Vanessa and Jonathan came to join us too. :) Today, Jinfa had some incident with missing his handphone haha. But luckily, he managed to get it back, so dont worry everyone. Well, today we went shopping at quite a lot of places at Orchard road. For example Wisma Atria, Takashimaya, Far East Plaza, Cineleisure etc. Well we did quite a lot of walking today, and it was a fun outing. My legs are dead tired now haha. And we bought something interesting that we can put in our Council Room to help people dis-stress haha. Check it out on Monday everyone!

Pictures Time! Haha.

Mrs Ho's Farewell Banner!

Aesthetico at Council Retreat!

We wished you were there Candice!!!

Our leisure activities haha.

Spending quality time together.

Sandcastle 1!

It has towers and icons representing our four committees haha.

Sandcastle 2!

The twin towers of Madonna haha.

Sandcastle 3! By my group!

Minas Tirith Sand style!

The 28th Student Council

A funny picture I took.

Nice eyebrow there Swee Wei!

Our Bungalow

Bungalow View 2

Yes, four guys on a bed just doesnt fit haha.

Sergeant Huang reporting for duty!

Mrs Ho Farewell Henderson Segment Skitters!!

Stay tuned for my next update!

PS:Thanks to everyone who has read through my long post...haha

Sentosa Outing 3!!! What a long day sia.

2005-11-20T18:24:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone! Its time for another update! Haha, if you're reading this, expect another long entry haha. Well quite a few people have been feedbacking to me that my entries are REALLY long, but I figured it will stay that way haha. I just like putting detailed entries so that when I reminiscence about stuff I will be able to remember everything haha. I wonder if any of you feel the same way? And now, back to the usual updates.

If any of you have read finish my previous blog entry, you would know that this week was quite a busy week for me haha.

On Wednesday, Mrs Ho's farewell audition for performers went quite well, despite some disputes and problems (such as getting locked in LT4 haha), everything went quite smoothly. And being a part of the backstage crew, I learnt a lesson that if you are hosting a show, even if the backstage crew is facing problems or is very hectic, the show must go on.And the backstage crew must not show to the audience that they are disorganised, even if they are. Its is all for the sake of making the performance go smoothly.

On Thursday, I finally went to learn the new revamped 28th SC dance. Its quite interesting and has a lot of variations. I had fun and quite a good workout after learning the dance, so I expect it to be a success when we teach it during O1 :) As for the General Meeting we had, we wrapped up our kettling dates, and Jinfa "forced" everyone to complete their NYAA so that they can hand it up on Monday, tomorrow. Haiz, I handed up my NYAA bronze last year but didnt recieve the certificate, and so my NYAA status is unconfirmed. Looks like I have to make a trip to the headquarters. As for Farewell, we went through and reconfirmed all the "segment" procedures. And tomorrow will be a rehearsal for councillors from 2.30pm-6pm.

On Thursday night, the gang which included me, Swee Wei, Cun Zheng, Joshua, Eric, Kai Jian and Merrick, Wei Jun, Bee Fong and Sandar went to Tampines to have dinner haha. It was quite a dinner outing cause we had a weird encounter on the long bus ride there. And at the food junction, more than half of us supported the same food stall haha. And since there wasnt enough space, I had to sit in the space between 2 benches haha. Man it must have been weird for people to see me sit that way. Well, if we added another chair there wouldnt be enough space for the 2 people sitting at the end to eat haha.

After dinner, we went to StarBucks while the girls went elsewhere to do some shopping. Along the way, Joshua saw Mrs Cindy Tay with her daughter, and so the 2 of us said hi to her. After our break at StarBucks, we finally went home. Well to cut my entry short I wont mention all the details haha. When I finally reached home at 11pm, I washed up and then played a round of DOTA with my class guys haha. Nowadays, its been a routine for us to DOTA late at night haha. Luckily we still manage to endure through school haha.

On Friday, after lecture lessons, me and my other councillors went out to J8 for lunch. I'm going out with them really a lot nowadays haha. In fact, I see them everyday. And I see my classmates only on weekdays haha. Even after hols started, I am still seeing the other councillors everyday :P Oh well, council is like that. At J8, we were feeling rich enough to go for Teppanyaki, cause the other places we went to either had no space, or we were bored of eating the same things again. Our group included Joshua, Jinfa, Candice, Cleo, Audrey, Me, Cun Zheng, Swee Wei, Winnie, and her friend Felicia.

And after lunch, the Aestheticians had a Aesthetico meeting at 1.20pm so we had to rush back to school. And grr I learnt the importance of always remembering to bring your Ez Link card along. At our meeting, Ms Tang was quite in a rush cause she had other things to do, but during the meeting we had reflections of what events we had gone through during this year, as well as what events we have to take up next year. After the meeting ended, me and Vanessa went to shop for the banner logistics we needed for the farewell banner. At night, I had another DOTA session again till around 1.00am+

On Saturday, it was yet another long day. Cause its Sentosa Scouting No.3!!! In the morning, Hui Min and Peiyee were setting off to China for enrichment programme, and so the we of us arranged to meet at Changi Airport at 6.30am to send them off. Luckily, my mom could fetch me there, so I woke up at 5.30am. Some of the others woke up at 4.00am :P At the airport, the whole O1 games committee (Jinfa, Swee Wei, Candice, Choy and me) and Cun Zheng, Joshua, Wei Jun, Junyi and Eric went to sent them off. After sending them off, we had our breakfast at Burger King, and then headed off for Sentosa. Junyi and Eric were occupied with other things so they didnt join us for Sentosa.

When we reached Habour Front MRT, the group of us met up with Merrick, Wei Fang, Nadz, Sandar, Yoga and Johnathan. And then we went to Sentosa to meet up with Miss Chiew and Mr Tony Lim. For our whole trip, we started off at the Ferry Terminal at 10.20am and reached our last destination at around 12.20pm.

In order, we started from the GAC (Group Arrival Centre) and went to:

Ferry Terminal
Steword's Riverboat
Burger King building
Bicycle Kiosk
Lost Civilisation
Arid Garden
Fountain Garden
Encanted Grove Of Tembusu
Musical Fountain
Merlion
Imbiah Lookout (Images of Singapore, Sentosa Luge)
Dragon Trail
Underwater World + Fort Siloso area
Siloso beach

Quite a lot of areas eh? The games committe has about confirmed what places we wish to put our stations at, and we also took in considerations the movement times and wet weather shelters. So the "Sentosa" proposal should be about completed with this trip.

After our debrief, we all went to Habour Front centre to have lunch, and then the remaining of us returned to NYJC for our friendly soccer match with the 26th SC guys. They included Joshua, Cun Zheng, Merrick, Jinfa, Yoga, Wei Jun, Candice and lastly me. Simin also came down to joined us as well to support us, I really appreciated that :) In the end, we played at the parade square and used chairs as goal posts cause other people were using the goal posts at the basketball courts. It was a 6v6 match with all the guys playing except for Jinfa cause he had to rush the games proposal. It was a really comical yet exciting and fun match, but sadly I had to leave after the first half cause I had to go for my family dinner. I then found out that our 28th team won! Great job guys! Haha, I wished I was there to share the joy with you guys. Well I hear that after the soccer, everyone went our to eat dinner togther, so I bet the soccer game turned out to be quite successful for promoting interaction between the 26th and the 28th.

For my family dinner, I went to Vienna at United Square to eat dinner to celebrate my Mom's B day which is tomorrow. Its quite expensive at $38+ per adult, but I had quite a heavy dinner, and I left the place with quite a bloated stomach. There's quite a lot of different kinds of foods offered there, but certain of the foods there arent up to standard. There's teppanyaki, seafood, sushi, cocktails, steamed foods, cakes, icecream, sharks fin soup, spagetti, crabmeat beehoon, and quite a lot of other foods. As for the service, the empty plates and cups etc are cleared quite quickly. The waiters and waitresses always seem so busy. And they even greet you at the door when you first enter. And something more perculiar was that they serve fruit juices in test tubes hm... On the overall, it was quite a good experience.

And at night, another DOTA session! Man it feels weird when you play DOTA and get owned by your brothers haha.

And as for today, I slept like a log in order to recuperate from having such a busy week. And my cousin who has stayed over for a night, seems to now have a greater understanding of DOTA after watching me get owned last night haha. And I spent some time playing Gundam Seed Never Ending Tomorrow on PS2 and yet another round of DOTA with my class guys and Swee Wei.

And now, I'm blogging and perhaps waiting for another DOTA match.

Tomorrow, I will have to go to school for banner painting and have a rehearsal for the mrs Ho's Farewell. And tuesday and wednesday will be Council Retreat! Which means even longer entries coming up lol...

And time for some pictures again:

On the bus to Tampines

On the MRT back to NYJC

Man, I look as if I am wearing a swimming cap

Vienna at United Square

One of the fruit cube drinks thingy. Nope, that's not alcohol haha.

Me and my Eldest Bro Zhichao

My 2 elder brothers, Zhichao and Zhilong. Dont they look alike?

My Mom and Dad, the best parents I could ever have :)

Ripple ice cream, my choice of dessert

My mom and I, and what a way to enjoy ice cream....haha
Stay tuned for my next updates!

Sentosa Outing No.2!!! + Jinfa B Day

2005-11-15T21:11:00.000-08:00

Yo yo! Finally another update everyone! Hehe.. Oh well, These few days has been a blast sia. On Saturday, I went for another Sentosa outing, and this time we had lots of fun! Cause this time, it really was a outing rather than Student Council business haha.

Well, in the morning, it was actually quite weird. My mom woke me up at 6.30am cause our initial plans were to meet at Habour Front at 8.00am and have breakfast at Mac's. But, it had to rain in the morning, and so after some consideration, Candice decided to change the meeting to 10.00am instead, cause we had to wait for the rain to stop. Oh well, what else could I do other than sleep? And I was quite tired the night before cause I had spent a whole day going to school and then to JB in the evening haha. Eventually, my Mom woke me up and drove me to Serangoon MRT station. I reached the MRT at around 9.30am, and sadly saw the MRT train leave right when I was walking down the stairs. :P But then again, missing the train wasn't really a bad thing after all, cause I met Cun Zheng and we took the next train together.

When we reached Habour Front eventually, we saw Jinfa, Wei Jun and Swee Wei waiting there for us already. And later on Candice reached and joined us. We then went to Mac's first, and later on Hui Min and Bee Fong joined us.

And thus we started our 2nd Sentosa trip together. The first place we had to go to was the "Ranger Station", cause Jinfa was scouting to see if the place was suitable to hold our council camp there. But it seems that the "rent" is quite costly when you think about it. After we scouted the place enough, we finally proceeded to the beach. But the bad thing was that the shortcut we took was a soccer field, and because it had rained earlier on, the field had "mud traps" all over haha. Hm...it seems as if everytime we go Sentosa we are bound to get our feet dirty in one way or another.

Well at the beach, we all finally went to get some sun tan. The sun was hot and scorching, and maybe we were actually lucky that there was rain in the morning, so there were lesser clouds. We had lots of fun at the beach, but one thing we regretted was that we forgot to bring either a ball or a frisbee haha. So we really went there just to sun tan haha.At the beach, we tried out some of the beach games that we thought of for the Sentosa games, and found out that some of them were easier to complete than expected, so we had to do some changes to my games again. The game we tried out was to bury a person in sand and see how long it took for him to get out by himself. Apparently its very easy. We took like 10mins+ to bury one person, and it takes less than 10 seconds to come out of all that sand haha. And we didnt want Sentosa's beach to become full of piles of sand and holes everywhere haha. And at the beach we saw 2 other girls who were from NYJC. One if them is Audrey Soh, Wei Jun's friend. Well I'm still convinced that Singapore is really small. Oh yah and at the beach there was this "Oily Couple" haha. And something interesting we saw was that one of the Sentosa lifeguards managed to see and catch a crab from the water. Hey, that's some eyesight there sia, and he was wearing sunglasses? And yeah he also warned us to be careful of stepping on stonefish and other stuff when we were walking in the shallow waters.

After we had enough sun tan, well I guess most of you all know how sunburnt I am, we then went to bathe up and then went to PS at Dhoby Gaut to have dinner as well as watch "The Exorcism Of Emily Rose". And I must say, girls can take quite some time to bathe up. Me and the other guys were waiting for so long at the bus stop near the toilet, that I was wondering if the girls had finished faster than us and went elsewhere to wait for us haha. Oh well I guess its natural for guys to wait for girls, as long as the guys are ok with it.

At PS, we booked the 6.30pm show and then went for dinner at the food court there. And yes, we saw again people who were from NYJC there haha. After our dinner, it was a bit rush for us cuase there was quite a long queue lining up for buying pop corn and stuff, and we only realised after reaching the counter that the special coupons we recieved for popcorn combos were only viable for January. That meant less drinks for everyone. Oh well, in the end we had enough share for everyone. For the movie, I feel that it was quite ok, but it wasnt really that scary than I expected. Somehow for some scenes, just when you expect some scary thing to happen, the movie changes to a new scene. So sometimes it felt "anti-climax" for me. But its a good movie on the overall. And what's interesting is that you get to know more about some "facts" on devils on stuff. This may be a spoiler, but Emily Rose was possessed by 6 demons, and the part where they sort of manifested themselves in Emily Rose, and used ancient language to speak to the priest rocked. It sounds like some magic incantation haha. 1,2,3,4,5,6! And it's only after the movie that I found out 6 is the number for Satan hm... Oh well, its quite funny when you watch the movie together with everyone, cause people like Candice only managed to watch 1/4 of the movie haha. I guess you all can figure out why eh? Personally, I think I have watched too many horror movies like Resident Evil and Land Of The Dead etc... There are just so many "dead zombies and lots of killing" shows, that I think I am numb to some extent haha. Not completely though.

Yeah, and so after the movie, we finally went home for some good rest. And I heard some people couldnt sleep at night after that movie haha. Well for me I was more worried about my sunburn. Well I guess when you're tired nothing matters.

And for this week, it is yet another week of Council, council, council. I bet most of the guys in my class are starting to realise how busy I am nowadays haha. On Monday, after Maths lecture I had Creative meeting for Mrs Ho's farewell. After that, I went to the MPR with the other councillors and went there to learn the new 28th SC dance. Yes, it's in progress of being completed. Well of course, there's still some revamping to be done, but dont worry, revamping means adding new and more interesting steps haha, not changing everything.

And today, Tuesday, its Jinfa's Birthday! Oh well, I'll say it again. Happy Birthday Jinfa! Haha. Today at school, we had another SC meeting. Man, the only meal I had today was dinner haiz. But then again I'm used to it cause secondary school was mostly like that for me haha. I just like staying around in class and talking with friends or doing some other stuff.It was quite abrupt, but Miss Chiew arranged with us a meeting today, and we discussed about our Sentosa games and what the general idea was like. I'm reminded again today that we still have quite a lot of work to do for preparations haha.

Tomorrow, Wednesday, there's the audition for the performers for Mrs Ho's farewell.
On Thursday, there's General Meeting for SC
On Friday, I will have to go out to school to buy logistics.
Next Monday, I will have to come back to school to do the banner for Mrs Ho's farewell.

Hm....looks like going home late again I guess. Oh well, I'm lucky that my parents support me. Haiz, I'm having troubles with homework again bleah. Have a lot of stuff to catch up on during these holidays. I wish I had some ultimate energy pill or something lol. Oh well the best way of doing things is time management, which I feel I have a lot to work on. Cya all at school! Its all of my friends such as you all who make my day at school interesting. And I hope I dont get Anime withdrawal symptoms lol... Hm... I guess I'm feeling stress cause I ain't getting enough sleep these days haha. My fault.

New Photos:

Sentosanians!

Too bad I aint inside haha.

Didnt bother to get someone else to take for me.

Hm... Having "quite" long hair isn't so bad after all.

Maybe I should try a different hairstyle the next time I go to the barber :P

One week delay

2005-11-11T22:53:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the delay everyone! Haha it seems that I have problems updating my blog at night. Wonder what's going wrong with blogspot sia... Anyways, here's my update on what has happened this week.

Firstly, I wish to congratulate everyone on finally completing Project Work!!! I believe that we have had enough of countless brainstormings and frustrations over our project work. But of course, I believe that everyone of us would have learnt a useful lesson through this one whole PW cycle. NY 200 Rocks!!! Haha. Well, I hope that the ending of PW doesnt mean the ending of the interaction between you and your group members haha. Cause we are all friends to each other right?

Well, this week was yet again another busy week at school. My whole week was occupied with Oral Presentation preparations until Thursday, which was my OP date. Trust being the last group in the schedule list haha. Ok apparently many people I know seem to have been falling sick nowadays, so you all must remember to take care of yourselves ok? Some people might say, "OP is over, so you can finally fall sick." But hey man, who likes being sick huh? Well I hope that you people all get well k? There's still lessons next week haha. And after next week, holidays will finally start. Oh well, I already have my mentality that councillors dont really get to have a holiday haha. Our schedule is just so busy nowadays. :P Preparing 2 projects at once can be so hectic and confusing haha.

And just to mention, Cun Zheng's b day was on thursday! Haha we didnt really have a BIG celebration for him, but anyways the gang which included him, Choy, Jinfa, Candice, Wei Jun and me went to Chomp Chomp for a scrumptious dinner, after we had finished our games meeting at the SC room. After that, we took a walk to Coffee Bean, and the girls bought some drinks, and then I invited them to my house to take a break haha. It feels quite nice inviting friends over to my house, and entertaining them and have fun. Oh well I believe there is sure to be a second time. :) Come my house again eh?

And today, I went to school for yet again another council meeting. Today had quite a lot of meetings going on at the same time. O1 Ad Hoc meeting, Games Meeting, Programmes Meeting, Solico Meeting, man that's quite a lot of meetings. Atfer everything, I , Cun Zheng, Swee Wei, Jinfa, Kah Hui, Hui Min, Cleo and Huishan went to J8 for lunch. Somehow, NYJC now seems like my second home, and the council room is like my usual hangout. And council feels like a second family haha. Imagine going to the same place everyday and meeting the same people each time? Well at least I manage to have my share of fun and work in council haha.

And after going to J8 today, for those who knew, I went to JB and had quite a good meal of seafood there haha. And we went shopping for quite a lot of drinks and stuff. Now, I'm waiting to DOTA with my classmates haha. And tomorrow, another trip to Sentosa!!! Stay tuned for another long update!! Haha.

Sentosa Scouting + Outing

2005-11-05T22:07:00.000-08:00

Woah, today was a really LONG and amazing day I had haha. Firstly, I wish to say sorry to my PW group members cause I missed out on the meeting that was organised today. Sorry people! I was fully occupied today with games meeting so I figured that there wasnt any point for me to attend the PW meeting when I already missed more than half of it already. And I couldn't leave the group when the games stuff was left unfinished for the day.

And so, I'll start mentioning what happened for me today.

Last night, I slept at 2.00am, and today I woke up at 6.30am cause our plan was to meet at Habour Front at 7.30am to eat breakfast together. When I reached Habour Front at around 7.26am, the first person I saw was Jinfa and he was sitting down at a side in the MRT station. I sat down and joined him, but within moments one of the MRT staff came to tell us that we were not allowed to sit down and wait for people. Thus, we stood up and waited at another part of the MRT station. And we were puzzled cause there was a sign saying loitering wasnt allowed. And wouldnt sitting down be following this rule? Well I guessed certain MRT stations have certain rules haha. Well a while later, Swee Wei reached and joined the 2 of us. And the 3 of us waited for Hui Min to join us before we went off for breakfast. She reached at around 7.45am.

The 4 of us proceeded to the nearby hawker centre and had our breakfast. Well I think I wont go into so detail the food we ate there haha. After we had finished our breakfast, we then went to meet up with Cun Zheng, Wei Jun, Bee Fong and Candice reached only later and were eating Macs at the Habour Front Centre. After all of our group was ready, we went to take the chartered bus to Sentosa. Well, we reached Sentosa at around 9.00am and started to get to work.

Our task today as game masters was to scout the area of Sentosa so that we could figure out and note down specifically which places were more suitable to set up games, and a rough estimate of how much time we took to move between station to station. And at the same time we managed to find out information about who to contact for hiring buses to Sentosa and the ferry timings etc. The game masters included Jinfa our head, Hui Min, Swee Wei, Candice, Choy and Me. Cun Zheng joined us cause he is from programmes committee, and Bee Fong and Wei Jun joined us to see if they could help out in any way.

From the main entrance, we walked to the ferry terminal and then saw the lost civilisation area where there were lots of stone totems and "ancient structures" haha. And from there we proceeded to the musical fountain, and were about to go to the Merlion when it started raining! And we had no choice but to hide under shelter. The best shelter nearby was the big building near the ferry terminal, and we had to run back to it through this "plant and leaf covered" shelter which was a temporary measure. Well, in the end we still had to run through the rain to get back to profer shelter. It was quite sad that because of the rain, we werent able to continue with our scouting properly, so we sat down at Burger King which was there in the building and discussed about our games which were school based.

Eventually, after the rain stopped we continued on and went to the Merlion, and then to the Dragon Trail. The worst part of our scouting was the Dragon Trail cause there was throughout sections of the trail where puddles of water had collected due to the rain, and it was really muddy and dirty. And it was worse cause most of us were wearing slippers or sandals....Well that's what you get when you try to walk through a forest path after it has just rained. The only lucky person in our group was Jinfa who wore shoes haha. After that enduring Dragon Trail, we finally reached the area near Siloso beach. And so we went to check out the area around Underwater World. Ok, I must admit that we were working and taking a look at the attractions there haha. We were admiring the pond were we saw a few really large turtles and fishes having a "mass breathing session" haha. During around this time, Choy finally came to join us cause he had Logistics meeting at school earlier on today so cant blame him haha. The few of us then went to check out Fort Siloso and found out that we couldnt use it as a checkpoint cause we had to buy tickets for entering the area.

We then carried on to Siloso beach. After walking quite a distance, we finally reached this chair lift station where we could pay $3 and travel all the way back to the area before the Dragon Trail where all the food places were located. I was unlucky cause we intended to take the chair lift, and when I took out my money my $1 coin dropped into a gap of the wooden platform. I could see it in the gap, but after trying quite a few times to take it out, I figured had no choice but to leave it alone there haha. Suay sia.

During this time, Jinfa started to feel unwell cause he was having stomach cramps. We then decided to cut short our scouting and we returned together to the mainland. Cun Zheng accompanied Jinfa to send him to the doctor while the rest of our group then went to Habour Centre again for lunch. We ate at Subway for lunch, and during our lunch Cun Zheng eventually came back to join us cause he sent Jinfa off in a cab already. After lunch Choy had to leave early cause he had other important matters to attend to. If you people didnt know, that was my first time eating at Subway! Haha... I bet I'll always remember it.

Our group then went to Plaza Singapura and Centre Point in Dhoby Gaut where we did a lot of window shopping and walking lol. I must say these 2 places are all about earrings and jewellery and stuff lol. And one comment I made was that big earrings to me are for "weight lifting" haha. I wonder why earrings need to be so big sia. Well that's my point of view. At Centre Point, we really had no idea where our next destination was to be, and we figured that after all that walking we should take a break at Coffee Bean or Starbucks. And so we walked along Orchard road in search of these 2 places, but eventually we sat down at Mac Cafe haha. Along the way of Orchard Road, there was a station set up where people were having a promotion of this F&N Blazt drink and free drinks of it were being given out to every passerby. We tried it out and it was quite ok. It's kind of like a mango taste soft drink. And there were like drink cans everywhere, oh well its quite typical for Singaporeans like us to go for free stuff haha.

When we sat at the Mac Cafe to take a break, the girls made a scary discovery that one of the fans above us had a dead butterfly stuck in the metal wire lid covering. What a bad way to die for a butterfly. And after we rested enough, we took a walk around the shopping centre there and we were stuck again about where to go haha. After another brainstorming session, we decided to go to Marina Square near City Hall to eat dinner at Han's. When we finally reached Han's, Cun Zheng had to leave cause he had a family function to go to. After finishing our dinner, we then went to Esplanade where we just sat down, admired the Singapore river and chatted about stuff haha. And we were convinced that Jinfa is a workaholic cause he called us halfway just to brief us again and allocate our work for games haha. The next to leave was Bee Fong cause she went to accompany her friend who was returning home, and soon after that the rest of us went home as well.

Even though I slept so little last night, I am amazed that I was able to endure through the whole day of walking and brainstorming and stuff haha. I thought that I would be dead tired halfway through, but I guess its because of the great ompany that kept me sustaining through all that haha. You rock people! Thank you all for such a great day. And I'm quite amazed again that I have enough energy to blog until this late even after such a busy day. I just feel energized and enthusiastic enough to do so haha. After today, I feel even more closer and bonded with everyone who I went out with today. Its these kind of things that make life interesting haha. Of course, fun is fun, but when work comes we still must learn to prioritise. I also learnt today that one of Hui Min's 100% successful technique to make people laugh, is when she sings "我从山中来，带着莲花草。" Well that's what she told me. Hm, I hope the lyrics are correct haha. And the guys who went for the today have suffered quite a number of "battle scars" lol. Luckily we are peaceful people haha. Oh well today was a funny and great day. I had a lot of laughs today too.

And here are some pictures taken from today:

Here's today's Sentosa Scout Team! Haha.

Here we are going to the Musical Fountain.

Having our meeting at Burger King while waiting for the rain to stop.

Three out of the four pretty girls who were in our group today.

Sigh, I wished I had a picture of the four of them.

Sorry Hui Min!

Our view from the Esplanade at night.

Note: Wow, I spent 3hrs on this post haha.

I must say I'm quite glad of myself :)

Hope you all like it!

Friday GM + Update Pictures

2005-11-04T21:31:00.000-08:00

Hehe, another update of the day. Today's SC general meeting went quite smoothly today, and it appears that a lot of our doubts have been cleared already. Today, we also finally cleared up the SC storage room and transfered all our belongings from the SL to the SC room. Its quite sad that we wont be using the SL from next year onwards. Its one of the more suitable places in school to either relax, chat with friends or do work together haha. I'll be sure to miss it next year. But then again, I'm so happy that after the mass "spring cleaning" session we had today, the SC storage room looks more like a decent storage room now rather than like a dump site haha. And our Aesthetico cupboard just looks so neat and special haha. Amazingly enough, I think our committee has the only cupboard with "special furnishing". Oh well it seems Aesthetico just likes to be creative. :) I'll take a photo and post it up someday haha.

Today in the afternoon, I went out for lunch at J8 with Cun Zheng, Swee Wei, Merrick, Candice, Wei Jun, Jun Yi and Simin. Yes, you heard it, J8 again. If you noticed my previous post, I went there on wednesday already haha. This time round though, it wasn't Kopitiam but Pastamania instead. After eating out so many times this week, I have noticed that I have been spending quite a lot of money haha. Eating out can be so expensive sia.

For tomorrow, I'll be going to Sentosa with the other councillors to do scouting of the area cause we are considering to have games in Sentosa for O1. The proposal isn't confirmed yet, but we still have to do our homework first, so here we are going to Sentosa tomorrow. At the same time, I have my PW group meeting tomorrow, so I guess I'll have to be quite rush tomorrow. Lets see how things go for tomorrow.

Oh yeah, I promised to update a few more pictures on my outing to Pasir Ris, so here they are. Its just a few random pictures though haha.

My Uncle's Dog, after he just had a swim in the sea.

Its really convenient when you have a big car that can carry bicycles inside of it haha.

Makes your day at the park so much easier, and that's what I call convenient.

Update on the past 2 days

2005-11-03T23:36:00.000-08:00

Haha, sorry for any late updates on my blog people. Anyways, I missed an entry yesterday cause I accidentally deleted my entry when I was blogging in the school library haha. So now's my update on what happened for me during these past 2 days. Yesterday, I was at school yet again because of SC work haha. I was helping Cun Zheng out to do the "Just Retired" signboard for our Farewell event, but the 2 of us figured that 2 non-artistically inclined guys such as us wouldnt be able to make the signboard look good enough, so we put it on hold. And the job I have at hand is to find photos for our photo exhibition for farewell. Its still tentative though, and I need to find out how many photos are available for us to use. Other than that, I was quite surprised that I saw quite a lot of friends hanging around school doing their PW haha. Everyone is just busy busy busy.

For today, I had a family outing at Pasir Ris Park with my relatives haha. It was quite fun to have a picnic in the morning, and we even played basketball at the court there. Well, looks to me that I'm still quite a lousy player, even though I myself got a few tyco shots haha. And playing basketball with slippers isnt really a good idea either. And walking around Pasir Ris Park also made me reminiscence about how I was still a small kid when we visited Pasir Ris Park in the past. Now, its like the facilities there mostly mention "For Kids only and not for Adults" haha. On the overall, I would say that its always nice to be able to just hang out with your relatives and enjoy family time, or how you would call it.

After we were done with our picnic, I then went to meet my secondary school friends for LAN at Paradiz centre. Its always interesting that every LAN session is always a different experience haha. Well, for guys we can just talk endlessly abt games and stuff if we're enthu about it. Well, as usual we played games such as DOTA, Jedi Outcast and CS haha. But DOTA was the bulk of the games haha. I played for around 4 hours+, and the cost was $12. Seems quite ex eh? After we were done with LAN, we went to eat Long John Silvers, and then the guys went to play pool. I only hanged around a bit longer, cause I have to go to school tomorrow for a council meeting haha. Cannot return home too late. So here I am, blogging lol. Oh yeah just because I'm blogging at 11.36pm doesnt mean I just reached home at this time haha. Well, looks like another day at school tomorrow haha. It seems for me like I have 1 day break in between each day I return to school haha. Cause for this week I have gone to school on Monday, Wednesday and Friday tomorrow. This kind of working pattern seems so weird haha. Oh well, I'm ending this entry here now. Gotta go sleep now to get myself energized for tomorrow's meeting. Good night everyone.

Pictures Of The Day

Nice view on top eh?

Ok you can't really see anything but trees...

Yes, we're on the Spider Web haha.

If you didnt know, that's my eldest bro Zhichao

Lol it looked fun so I had to try it.

Well, it was hard to pose for the camera when it started spinning...haha

Note:There's some more pictures on my handphone, but I haven't uploaded them yet haha. Stay tuned.

Chinese CLAO Day Part 2

2005-10-31T23:10:00.000-08:00

Hm, what a hectic day I had today. I had to wait for quite a long time before my actual games meeting started. The CLAO exam was supposed to end at 11.00 but for the students in the hall, it ended after 11.40am. As usual, games meeting was quite noisy and funny haha. I kind of like meetings this way, even though productivity can be quite low at times. Council just has to be fun in order for us to enjoy it. Of course, we must know when to be serious as well. After finishing our meeting, I hanged around the SC room cause I didnt really feel like going home early haha. And after our programmes committee had finally ended their meeting as well, I went out to have lunch at J8 with Cun Zheng, Candice, Merrick and Qiu Han. And after reaching home, I finally managed to play DOTA with Swee Wei and Joshua together haha. Man, its playing together with friends that makes multiplayer games rock. One of these days my class guys should go out for a mass LAN gaming session haha. On boh?

Well, it seems to me that the week ahead is going to be quite hectic as well. Regardless of public holidays, there's still a huge pile of work to be done haha. I think I should start planning out my stuff by tomorrow...

And I congratulate all my friends for finally completing their CLAO exam. :)

Chinese CLAO Day

2005-10-31T20:50:00.000-08:00

Yo, I'm back again haha. Currently, I am in the library now surfing the web and blogging. Yeah, well everyone else is having their CLAO test now. A mind bogging 3hrs.... I'm so glad that I dont need to take it.

Anyways, I am at school so early because of a couple of matters. First, I have to hand up my drop subject form. 2nd, I need to collect this CD with photos from my classmate for council work. 3rd, I have a Games meeting at 11.00pm at the Student Council Room. Yeah I could have come school at 10+ or something, and did these things later, but I felt its more convenient to do everything if I came in the morning. Besides that, I can also cheer on my friends before they take the test. Hopefully I wasn't a nuisance haha. Hope you all are doing ok with the paper now. I wonder if the guys are going out to watch a movie or lan later haha. Well too bad for me cause I dont expect my games meeting to be a short one.

I think I'm kind of getting the hang of updating my blog entries. I never would have guessed I would be blogging at school early in the morning. It just didnt come to my mind haha. Nowadays, at home its always about playing games such as DOTA, WoW, Dynasty Warrior 5, and I just revived my MapleStory character on Saturday. Putting games and Anime aside, I think I need to figure out the deadlines for the homework I have at hand. And I also need to think of how I can improve my OP script. There's just lots of stuff waiting for me to do haha. This will be the busiest holiday I have yet.

First Post!!!

2005-10-30T17:30:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! I am Zhiming, and welcome to my new blog. Ok I must first thank you for viewing this blog. I hope it looks ok haha. Of course, I chose to use an anime blogskin for my blog cause I'm such an anime fan. I used to have a old blog as well, but its quite dead now cause I have not updated it in ages. And it doesnt even have a tag board haha. All thanks to me being a lousy at computers and stuff. This time round, I put in a bit more effort and finally figured out how to put up one haha. Please tag me ok? And for all those who know me and have blogs, my links section is quite empty so I wish to fill it up haha. Tell me if I could link to your blogs k?

And now comes my update on how life has been. Coming to this stage of having only 2 months left till finishing the first year of J1, I feel that I still have a long way to go in focusing on my studies. I managed to get promoted, but I believe that I must make use of this opportunity to work harder from now on. It seems I still have a long way to learn about balancing my studies. And its scary when you suddenly realise that just one step wrong and your life could be completely changed. At least that's how I feel. Well then no matter what happens, the fact still remains true that as long as you perservere and have put in effort, there is bound to be a way out. So perservere on everyone! I wish you all the best in whatever you do. And hopefully next year, I will have accomplished that I have hoped I can achieve.