Yo everyone! Phew what a tiring day yesterday was. school from 7.45am to 5.30+ pm non-stop. and me and a few of my classmates had a 5 hour study marathon cause bio remedial which was 2 hours was directly after our last 3 lessons. But well I must say the remedial was quite worth it.
After that grueling 5 hours, I decided to check out how the councillors were coping with council camp preparations. Council camp has finally started haha. Oh well, I did some helping out in moving stuff and then I proceeded to the council room to do some mugging. On overall I managed to spend like around 2 hours worth of studying alone, despite all the "distractions" when councillors needed to collect stuff from the council room haha.
After mugging enough, I decided to make a trip to the canteen to try to photocopy some of my summaries, but it ended up that the school photocopying machines are out of order. -_- Well, anyways I decided to finally take a break, so I walked around and checked out how the council camp was going on. In the end, I went home at around 10.25pm. Haha due to many reasons I stayed till quite late.
Haha I finally realised why Ms Chiew said that I shouldnt have stayed back to see the council camp. I mean like yah, I'm glad that I got to see the councillors and contributed some help, but those negative feelings which I locked up inside me were starting to slowly resurface as I saw myself in the same predicament as before. You feel like you want to help, but you shouldnt, and you end up just "slacking" and wasting precious time which could be used to study. Somehow I knew I needed a break from studying, but slacking again doesnt make me feel any better. -_- I think sleeping is so many more times productive than slacking. When you sleep, people know you're tired. When you slack, people may wonder why are you slacking in the first place. Slacking just means you're still able to do work but you dont want to.
Deciding to excuse myself form council camp turned out to be a right decision after all. As far as I've understood. I'm still not there yet on how to equally revise my three subjects well. At least nowadays I'm like always mugging bio, bio, bio. :p I hope I do well for the upcoming test. These three days I shall need to mug chemistry too...
Oh well, time for another Studying Marathon at home. Chem Test on tuesday and Biology Test on wednesday! Lets Go!! Enough fretting over bad feelings... which is what I always do. Time to remember what's important, and to move forward. I need to reminded about reality once in a while. Being too carefree makes me....lose track of my goals.
And if any of you councillors at council camp ever get to see this post, jia you yah? Do not leave back any regrets.
And now... Study! Study! Study! Busy! Busy! Busy!
Zhiming @ 8:49 PM.