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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

The human mind can be so dumbfounding.

No matter how much self-reflection I did before, people like me are still unable to fully control my emotions.

The same vicious cycle, the same problems, the same solutions. Everything seems simple enough, the logic of "Been there, done that, must improve and move on this time." But things just get complicated.

The past still continues to haunt me. Regrets, anguish, sorrow, misery. Negative emotions overcome me when ever there's any little chance.

I learnt that people control their emotions. But yet I still get confused at times.

When you feel bad about yourself, nothing gets into the head. Not encouragement from friends, not care from teachers, not the deadlines that need to be met. And then? The only person you can depend on of course is still yourself. You cant depend on others forever.

Time is not a luxury as always. There's tons of things to do. After my spring has recharged, its back to mugging mode again.

I made promises. And I must keep them. I disappointed people. I hated myself for that. In the end everything leads to me still hating myself and seeing myself as still remaining the weak self I was convinced I was.

There's no point telling yourself you improved character-wise, when you still cant accomplish anything at all.

Enough time wasted. Time to get more things done.

What is my true desire? I shall find out someday.

If I cant even handle the path I am taking now, let alone the path I shall eventually discover and take in future.

I want to be more stronger and stronger and stronger.

If only things were as simple as in Anime series... Where characters accompish amazing feats and overcome all odds to finally attain their goals...

I cannot afford to lose track of my path at this point of time now...

Its always the same issues that I keep forgetting...

Goals. Priorites. Promises.Perseverance. Self-Motivation. Regrets.

Is willpower a panacea to all problems?

Let's all find out and see if miracles can really happen to me after all.

Different people have different beliefs. I guess I just have to stick to mine. And continue to move forward.

I believe I told myself before that I expected the journey to be arduous. So there's no point having fears now.

The battle continues on. The weak-willed shall be the final loser. Survival of the fittest indeed.

Zhiming @ 11:29 PM.