Haiz... today my weakness resurfaced again... The same old problem of not being able to stand noise when I get tired... Must have been cause of all that exhaustion from the 5hr lesson marathon... I mean, I dunno if its by reasoning or just by emotion, but somehow noise doesnt suit me when I'm tired. Like I'm already so tired already then still must tahan so much unnecessary noise? Especially when its made by people... Been a long problem. And I mean really LONG. With those other weaknesses which I know about myself. I'm convinced that I'm still a scary person after all. Man, I tried to stay away to cool down...but I still have to enter the "noisy area" cause I have to tell people to "Let's go eat dinner already" ya know? And in the end? End result still the same. Its not that I'm not trying. -_- If it was me of the past, I would have been even more unpredictable. At least now you can "see" when I start to buay tahan. Not that I'm any proud of myself though. Its a long lasting battle and I'm still always at the same level. Bleah. Next time I should use ear plugs or something. Now that's an idea. But its not solving the root of the problem. Which is what I want. The search still continues...

Haiz. Sad. Disappointed myself yet again. The dark side wins again.

Anyways, this weekend I need to pia some homework. Otherwise I'll feel even more bad over myself.