Oh... What a long time it has been since I last blogged. I wonder if anyone still visits? Haha... Oh well just suddenly felt like updating I guess.

I mean like hey, everyone's so busy nowadays. There's no time left to still be slacking away for studies. Pay now play later? I would rather think, pay now, or suffer the consequences. Oh well I might have a different viewpoint all together when A Levels are finally over. Who doesnt want to have fun and relax all they want? Well currently, by now I should have understood what situation I am in now. Better put in my bestest effort to close the grade gap or nothing will ever get accomplished.

So far, "Operation Time Table" has been quite effective so far. At least I shortened a lot of time spent always slacking away, or falling asleep or stuff. Having a plan in mind does get me going all the way after all. Less time slacking=more productivity. At least I dont feel bad about myself wasting time... My schedule always keeps me busy and occupied.

Hm... I bet it will be an interesting thing to find out how much more I can actually accomplish and finally show some of that potential inside me. Everyone's got to have some hope yah? Self-motivation is very important in no matter what you do.

Of course, who doesnt have regrets about the past. Or even doubts about the future. But the main point is to understand what's your priorities and goals, and just achieve them. Time is not a luxury to always be pondering about the bad past. Which I always tend to do. But we all just have to move on... There's no point in always looking back if you dont learn from your mistakes, and put in action. And of course, I dont want to be bothering people again with my personal problems... I got to learn how to settle things by myself. I cant always be depending on others forever. Other people have their own problems and lives to carry on with.

Somehow, lessons like determination, self-discipline, self-motivation, perseverance, priorities, they were all taught to me since a very long time ago. But its only now that I can actually sense I am following these lessons better now.

Bit by bit I sense some part of me inside changing. Even though its not exactly major changes. Maybe I'm one small step more closer into discovering that part inside me that I always felt was missing. Just a gut feeling.

There's no time for me to be going out to enjoy myself. I prefer staying at home to be as productive as I can in work. There's so much stuff to be done...

I sure hope I see some improvement, no matter how little. Better get myself out of that "shit-hole" which I had dug for myself once and for all.

Busy busy busy....

What are your goals? What do you believe in? No matter what, there's work to be done. We just have to continue moving forward.

All the best to everyone for prelims and A levels....